Behold you have come
over the hills
upon the mountain.
To me, you will run.
My beloved, you've captured my heart.
Won't you dance with me, Oh Lover of my soul, to the song of all songs?
With you, I will go.
You are my love,
you are my fair one.
The winter has passed
and the springtime has come.
Won't you dance with me, Oh Lover of my soul, to the song of all songs?
Romance me, oh Lover of my soul, to song the song of all songs.
Please God, dance with me til the last song, even if i suck at it.
And romance me because right now, you are the only guy that i need.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
since i seem to be making a habit out of staying up late...
so, just a quick note, because alot of things happened in my life today that are worth taking note of ...at least for me.
1. I almost signed a lease to live with Jilly beans, Gabi, and Katy today, but then the Heights said they already filled up all the extra spaces... Mehh, i shoulda known because that's what happened at the Edge, and the good places go fast i guess...
1.5 But...i feel alittle relieved because i've never had to pay for anything that expensive every month and i was really scared. I know it has to happen sooner or later, but for now, later is sounding very fine with me!
1.8 I'm still sad though, because it woulda been superrrr legit to live with them! But at least we determined that we can still borrow each others clothes, thank goodness... (:
2. I love that I have like 37 pictures of Clayton on my phone, all of them in which she is looking a-fool and just being very clayton-esque. I love that kid!
3. I started looking at what classes I need for next semester and started getting alittle freaked out. It's always a stressful time trying to pick my schedule...I want it to be perfect, but how am i supposed to know which times are going to be perfect so far in advance??
4. I went to sonic today...enough said! (:
5. 24 hours of prayer is going on RIGHT NOW as we SPEAK! (yes, i know we're not speaking...) I went from 10-11, and sat in the really hot prayer room with Aubrey. It was really cool. And surprisingly alot easier than I thought it would be to pray for a whole hour. I've been practicing though, so that might help. (not practicing praying for an hour, just i've been trying to talk to God alot more through out my day...)
6. I saw Case today for the first time in like 2 weeks or something! And I just want to confirm that he's still like really nice to me. We talked about babies and how they "are too small!" and some other weird stuff...haha. it was fun.
7. Everybody thinks its soo ridiculous that I want to get married by the time I'm 23...well, it's not! Especially when all my friends are like 19-20 and are definitely getting married all the time. No exceptions...except for a few. (:
7.5 Anyway, just call me...the girl from 27 dresses, because I'm well on my way! Which is totally cool. the only downside is that the dresses tend to cost money...
8. if i stay up much later than this, there is no way I will be bright eyed and bushy tailed when it's time to get up in the morning and run...
8.2 But alas, I don't actually have a tail, so this might be a good thing.
9. I WANT A STACY VOICEMAIL!!!!!! and a phone convo even. I miss that kid mucho!
10. Speaking of Stacy, hello every summer missionary that I pretty much ever talked to. I miss you for sure. Call me. ( Because I think we all know, i won't call you. Not because i hate you, just because i suck at phones)
11. This is just getting ridiculous. Now i'm just coming up with random stupid stuff so that I don't have to go to bed...I mean shoot, if i keep this up, we're gona be all the way to number 584...and who wants to read all that anyway?!
So then 12. Good NIGHTTTTTT. (:
1. I almost signed a lease to live with Jilly beans, Gabi, and Katy today, but then the Heights said they already filled up all the extra spaces... Mehh, i shoulda known because that's what happened at the Edge, and the good places go fast i guess...
1.5 But...i feel alittle relieved because i've never had to pay for anything that expensive every month and i was really scared. I know it has to happen sooner or later, but for now, later is sounding very fine with me!
1.8 I'm still sad though, because it woulda been superrrr legit to live with them! But at least we determined that we can still borrow each others clothes, thank goodness... (:
2. I love that I have like 37 pictures of Clayton on my phone, all of them in which she is looking a-fool and just being very clayton-esque. I love that kid!
3. I started looking at what classes I need for next semester and started getting alittle freaked out. It's always a stressful time trying to pick my schedule...I want it to be perfect, but how am i supposed to know which times are going to be perfect so far in advance??
4. I went to sonic today...enough said! (:
5. 24 hours of prayer is going on RIGHT NOW as we SPEAK! (yes, i know we're not speaking...) I went from 10-11, and sat in the really hot prayer room with Aubrey. It was really cool. And surprisingly alot easier than I thought it would be to pray for a whole hour. I've been practicing though, so that might help. (not practicing praying for an hour, just i've been trying to talk to God alot more through out my day...)
6. I saw Case today for the first time in like 2 weeks or something! And I just want to confirm that he's still like really nice to me. We talked about babies and how they "are too small!" and some other weird stuff...haha. it was fun.
7. Everybody thinks its soo ridiculous that I want to get married by the time I'm 23...well, it's not! Especially when all my friends are like 19-20 and are definitely getting married all the time. No exceptions...except for a few. (:
7.5 Anyway, just call me...the girl from 27 dresses, because I'm well on my way! Which is totally cool. the only downside is that the dresses tend to cost money...
8. if i stay up much later than this, there is no way I will be bright eyed and bushy tailed when it's time to get up in the morning and run...
8.2 But alas, I don't actually have a tail, so this might be a good thing.
9. I WANT A STACY VOICEMAIL!!!!!! and a phone convo even. I miss that kid mucho!
10. Speaking of Stacy, hello every summer missionary that I pretty much ever talked to. I miss you for sure. Call me. ( Because I think we all know, i won't call you. Not because i hate you, just because i suck at phones)
11. This is just getting ridiculous. Now i'm just coming up with random stupid stuff so that I don't have to go to bed...I mean shoot, if i keep this up, we're gona be all the way to number 584...and who wants to read all that anyway?!
So then 12. Good NIGHTTTTTT. (:
Monday, April 5, 2010
Sometimes I stay up late because my brain won't turn off.
Hello all 9 of you who may or may not actually read my blog... (:
Yeah, just like the rest of you, i haven't written in awhile because school was like "oh hello, i'm gona RUIN your life!! have fun."
Anyway, last night I was thinking about random stuff...I guess because it was Easter I was thinking about how I take Jesus for granted a LOT, and I don't thank God enough for sending His son to die for my sins, and rise again (because he's legit...). And then I was thinking why did God even do it all. Like not in a bad way or like I'm not glad He did. But all the sudden I was just like "why in america did God make Jesus die on a cross because we all suck at life?"
And why did he make us in the first place? If you think about it, God doesn't need us. Fact.
Like, God's already perfect, but he decided to bring us into the world...to mess everything up. And the funny thing is, He knew we would...Yet here we all are anyway. Because for whatever reason, he loves us. This is definitely crazy to me. How could he love every one of us before he even made us? And how in the world could he love us even though he straight up KNEW we would break his heart again and again? I mean, why put yourself through that?
I guess (to answer my own question), it's kinda like that stupid philosophy question: Would it be better to bring someone into the world if it was for a greater purpose, even if it means alot of yucky suffering and heart ache and questioning and hurting? Or would it be better to just live in a lame, safe, really boring bubble where nothing could ever hurt you or make you think and question stuff? The answer seems obvious in this case.
...And I guess if I ponder it long and hard enough, I realize that the answer is the same for my God question.
It is better to go through some really hard, crazy, sometimes disheartening times for a greater purpose. I think God knew that, and of course, that's why He chose to do it. And I think he's put that knowledge in the people's hearts who have the holy spirit. I think God's greater purpose in creating us was so that glory would ultimately be brought to his name. And that's our greater purpose also; to fulfill God's plan of making HIS name famous.
I guess he knew we would screw up 80 times a day along the way, but he also knew that if we are willing to trust in Him to guide us through this mess of life it's gona be so worth it.
So I just wana say thanks to "the big guy upstairs", as jenny beans calls God, for choosing to create us. Me. the mess that I am. So that I can live my life giving You the glory in everything I do...or at least attemting to. Thanks for never giving up on me and for loving me like a freakin hurricane! You are the best (:
Also, on a slightly less profound note, I played Weston tonight!! Man, it's been a good while! [stupid school!] But I took him outside on the back "porch", tuned him up, put on the capo and played How He Loves (and some other stuff). ...Just me and Weston and God...and it was great. (:
The end. Love Julie, who will very soon be 19!
Yeah, just like the rest of you, i haven't written in awhile because school was like "oh hello, i'm gona RUIN your life!! have fun."
Anyway, last night I was thinking about random stuff...I guess because it was Easter I was thinking about how I take Jesus for granted a LOT, and I don't thank God enough for sending His son to die for my sins, and rise again (because he's legit...). And then I was thinking why did God even do it all. Like not in a bad way or like I'm not glad He did. But all the sudden I was just like "why in america did God make Jesus die on a cross because we all suck at life?"
And why did he make us in the first place? If you think about it, God doesn't need us. Fact.
Like, God's already perfect, but he decided to bring us into the world...to mess everything up. And the funny thing is, He knew we would...Yet here we all are anyway. Because for whatever reason, he loves us. This is definitely crazy to me. How could he love every one of us before he even made us? And how in the world could he love us even though he straight up KNEW we would break his heart again and again? I mean, why put yourself through that?
I guess (to answer my own question), it's kinda like that stupid philosophy question: Would it be better to bring someone into the world if it was for a greater purpose, even if it means alot of yucky suffering and heart ache and questioning and hurting? Or would it be better to just live in a lame, safe, really boring bubble where nothing could ever hurt you or make you think and question stuff? The answer seems obvious in this case.
...And I guess if I ponder it long and hard enough, I realize that the answer is the same for my God question.
It is better to go through some really hard, crazy, sometimes disheartening times for a greater purpose. I think God knew that, and of course, that's why He chose to do it. And I think he's put that knowledge in the people's hearts who have the holy spirit. I think God's greater purpose in creating us was so that glory would ultimately be brought to his name. And that's our greater purpose also; to fulfill God's plan of making HIS name famous.
I guess he knew we would screw up 80 times a day along the way, but he also knew that if we are willing to trust in Him to guide us through this mess of life it's gona be so worth it.
So I just wana say thanks to "the big guy upstairs", as jenny beans calls God, for choosing to create us. Me. the mess that I am. So that I can live my life giving You the glory in everything I do...or at least attemting to. Thanks for never giving up on me and for loving me like a freakin hurricane! You are the best (:
Also, on a slightly less profound note, I played Weston tonight!! Man, it's been a good while! [stupid school!] But I took him outside on the back "porch", tuned him up, put on the capo and played How He Loves (and some other stuff). ...Just me and Weston and God...and it was great. (:
The end. Love Julie, who will very soon be 19!
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