Welp, it's almost 2011 kids...is that crazy to anyone else? I feel like when I was younger a year was suchhh a long time. When we would finally get to Christmas break again, my heart would be so dang happy. I remember the first day of Christmas break in first grade I think, and I was running around the living room (in circles) in some black courdoroy overalls...they were lovely. And the living room was lovely of course because it was finally Christmas! But anyway, I digress. Now a year seems to fly by, which can be both good and bad.
I just went for a run around downtown seguin and when I got home I opened the door to go inside, but then i closed it. without going in. I decided I needed some driveway time...
My driveway is super great. Well, I don't know if others, especially people outside of my immediate family, have the same appreciation for it, but to me, it is completely wonderful.
It's great in the daytime, but it's perfect at night. It doesn't mind if you're sweaty or crying. You can bring the couches out there and watch movies on the garage with your friends, or have your birthday party or wash your car. There's always basketball, if you're feeling ambitious...and if you bring the ball because we don't have one anymore...You can read boring papers for Mr. Simpsons class out there or play in the back of Drew's really old tiny truck, and even have scooter or bike races (again, if you have the scooter and/or bike)! My personal favorites are to play the guitar out there or just sit on the slanty part, or the bed of Jordans truck if there's too many scary bugs out there, and talk it up and stare at the stars.
I've seriously had some of the best talks in my whole entire life out there on the driveway: in person or on the phone, good or bad, easy or hard, I pretty much want to be on that driveway. My friend panda and I used to drive to sonic and drive around seguin for awhile, til we realized there was nothing to do, so then we would come back to my house and hang out on the driveway. I remember one night in particular, we just sat on the back of her car and talked about stuff going on in our lives. I think that's one of the first nights I realized that there was something beautiful about being totally genuine. Then I remember praying out there for a really long time. But it wasn't a bad long time, it was really good.
I've also talked on the phone to Brennan about coming to the good old 29020, which wasn't really a long one, just an exciting one. One time Little Sarah and Charles and I ate some delicious ice cream and chatted it up. I don't remember why we were outside, but it was pretty much a great idea. Also, one time Little Sarah and I sat in her car in my driveway (ok, maybe it was on the street, but it was close to it) and played a ridiculous theoretical what-if game...haha. And of course, some pretty awesome times with the bros and sis out there too, alot at night (which is the perfect time if you will recall)so that's fun.
Anyway, as I layed on the driveway today after my run, I couldn't help but think how much I loved it right there, exactly where I was. I thought about all the good times, I looked at the sky, and I hung out with God, and it was awesome. When life gets complicated, my driveway is the best. Please feel free to use it anytime...just ask. (:
Monday, December 27, 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Show me the Kingdom.
So I was reading my Bible this morning and I came across something pretty cool that I've probly read millions...ok, maybe not a million, but quite a few times...Matthew 4.
It starts off talking about when Jesus was tempted by the devil while He was fasting in the desert. (first of all, fasting is hard enough, but He did it in the desert...that's pretty intense!)Anyway, Satan finds him and he's like "hey, if you're hungry, why don't you just turn some rocks into bread, huh?" and Jesus is like "Man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord." So boom Satan! (Deut. 8:3) Then Satan tells Him "why don't you fall down off of this really tall temple and get some angels to save you?" Jesus says Yeah right! "Do not test the Lord your God." (Deut. 6:16). So Satan tries again and tells Jesus he'll give him abunch of really awesome kingdoms (which is weird to me because it's not like Satan owned them and had the right to give them away) if Jesus will bow down to him, but Jesus resisted again and told the devil what was up. "Fear the Lord your God, serve Him only..." (Deut. 6:13)
So, that's maybe kind of a long recap, but here's what gets me: I never think about things being hard for Jesus. I always remember the part about how He is 100% God, but I think I forget too often that He was also 100% human...And if he was human, he went through things that we go through, like for example, being tempted. Is that crazy to anyone else, because it is to me. I think every other time I've read that story I've believed that Jesus was tempted but that it was super easy for Him to resist the temptations...Soo, maybe I'm wrong, but I've been thinking about it alot and it doesn't really make sense to me that someone could be tempted but not have some part of them that was like "gahhh, i really want that...so bad. At least for right now..."
Tempt= 1.to entice or allure to do something often regarded as unwise, wrong, or immoral.
2. to attract, appeal strongly to, or invite.
Anyway, yeah, I just think it's kinda great that our King Jesus was tempted in the desert by Satan Mc-Crappypants but Jesus said no way jose! And as followers of Jesus, we can say no way jose too because we have Jesus who is living INSIDE us! It sounds super hard to resist stuff that is bad for us yet sounds so appealing, but the point is that Jesus Christ already died for our sins on the cross and if we just let him have control of all our crap, our lives will go so much better. So yeahhh boyeee, let's do it!
Oh but hey, just as a sidenote: I'm definitely just learning what it means to give my crap to Jesus and let him reign in my life. I'm learning that when I do take the time to dig deep in His word that is is so sweet and satisfying and revealing and just worth it!
"Help me see the light, I'm reaching through the fight Yahweh. Show me the Kingdom. Arms open wide, death swallowed up by life. Yahweh, show me the kingdom." -B.D.
It starts off talking about when Jesus was tempted by the devil while He was fasting in the desert. (first of all, fasting is hard enough, but He did it in the desert...that's pretty intense!)Anyway, Satan finds him and he's like "hey, if you're hungry, why don't you just turn some rocks into bread, huh?" and Jesus is like "Man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord." So boom Satan! (Deut. 8:3) Then Satan tells Him "why don't you fall down off of this really tall temple and get some angels to save you?" Jesus says Yeah right! "Do not test the Lord your God." (Deut. 6:16). So Satan tries again and tells Jesus he'll give him abunch of really awesome kingdoms (which is weird to me because it's not like Satan owned them and had the right to give them away) if Jesus will bow down to him, but Jesus resisted again and told the devil what was up. "Fear the Lord your God, serve Him only..." (Deut. 6:13)
So, that's maybe kind of a long recap, but here's what gets me: I never think about things being hard for Jesus. I always remember the part about how He is 100% God, but I think I forget too often that He was also 100% human...And if he was human, he went through things that we go through, like for example, being tempted. Is that crazy to anyone else, because it is to me. I think every other time I've read that story I've believed that Jesus was tempted but that it was super easy for Him to resist the temptations...Soo, maybe I'm wrong, but I've been thinking about it alot and it doesn't really make sense to me that someone could be tempted but not have some part of them that was like "gahhh, i really want that...so bad. At least for right now..."
Tempt= 1.to entice or allure to do something often regarded as unwise, wrong, or immoral.
2. to attract, appeal strongly to, or invite.
Anyway, yeah, I just think it's kinda great that our King Jesus was tempted in the desert by Satan Mc-Crappypants but Jesus said no way jose! And as followers of Jesus, we can say no way jose too because we have Jesus who is living INSIDE us! It sounds super hard to resist stuff that is bad for us yet sounds so appealing, but the point is that Jesus Christ already died for our sins on the cross and if we just let him have control of all our crap, our lives will go so much better. So yeahhh boyeee, let's do it!
Oh but hey, just as a sidenote: I'm definitely just learning what it means to give my crap to Jesus and let him reign in my life. I'm learning that when I do take the time to dig deep in His word that is is so sweet and satisfying and revealing and just worth it!
"Help me see the light, I'm reaching through the fight Yahweh. Show me the Kingdom. Arms open wide, death swallowed up by life. Yahweh, show me the kingdom." -B.D.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
No More Sleepin Under Stars of Apathy...
It's well past midnight
And I'm awake with questions that won't
Wait for daylight
Separating fact from my imaginary fiction
On this shelf of my conviction
I need to find a place
Where You and I come face to face
Thomas needed
Proof that You had really risen
Undefeated
When he placed his fingers
Where the nails once broke Your skin
Did his faith finally begin?
I've lied if I've denied
The common ground I've shared with him
And I, I really want to know You
I want to make each day
A different way that I can show You how
I really want to love You
Be patient with my doubt
I'm just tryin' to figure out Your will
And I really want to know You still
Nicodemus
Could not understand how You could
Truly free us
He struggled with the image
Of a grown man born again
We might have been good friends
Cuz sometimes I still question, too
How easily we come to You
No more campin' on the porch of indecision
No more sleepin' under stars of apathy
And it might be easier to dream
But dreamin's not for me
And I'm awake with questions that won't
Wait for daylight
Separating fact from my imaginary fiction
On this shelf of my conviction
I need to find a place
Where You and I come face to face
Thomas needed
Proof that You had really risen
Undefeated
When he placed his fingers
Where the nails once broke Your skin
Did his faith finally begin?
I've lied if I've denied
The common ground I've shared with him
And I, I really want to know You
I want to make each day
A different way that I can show You how
I really want to love You
Be patient with my doubt
I'm just tryin' to figure out Your will
And I really want to know You still
Nicodemus
Could not understand how You could
Truly free us
He struggled with the image
Of a grown man born again
We might have been good friends
Cuz sometimes I still question, too
How easily we come to You
No more campin' on the porch of indecision
No more sleepin' under stars of apathy
And it might be easier to dream
But dreamin's not for me
Monday, December 20, 2010
Get stoked...I am!
So, school is officially over for the semester, like grades posted and everything. I'm not gona lie, I was pretty nervous to see my blaw grade. I figured I could pull off a D, but I really needed a C...also on tracs, it said my bio grade was a B, but I was in disbelief. When you tend to make 68's on your tests (or quite possible 30 points lower) you don't usually end up with a B. Buttttt...I guess the final saved me; I made a 99 (: And in Blaw, I made a C!! Yeah so, needless to say, I'm pretty stoked about my grades and how this semester finished.
Alot of other great stuff other than grades happened this semester too:
-I made some super legit friends and deepened other friendships from last year. I'm super blessed by God to have these people in my life. These peeps don't mind that i'm kinda awkward sometimes (ok, alot of the time) and crazy and shy except for not really. They even want me to play the guitar for them, so that's pretty fun (cept for when there's boys present who are straight up beasts on the guitar, that makes my heart beat super fast).
-B-hoot...aka Brooke Hooten and Amanda Jane Foss from the bsm. I don't know how God's brain works (obviously) but I am sure glad He thought it would be a good idea to lead them to Txstate while I am at Txstate. These kids are pretty much amazing and I love getting to hang out with them and just get to be real with them. I love that it was like this from the very beginning and that more than anything else, these girls/ladies/"women"/whatever you want to call them love Jesus more than anything else and seek His will for their lives. Woodangyeah! You guys rock my socks off.
-My small group girls...as disheartening as it was sometimes to only have 2 girls when everyone else's group was pretty much literally overflowing (okk, not literally), God really used our time together and I'm so thankful now for a small group where we could be open and honest, even if it took awhile to get there. It's also definitely at least tried to teach me about responsibility...stupid talents! (: But yeah, last semester was a blast and I'm looking forward to what God will do next semester, and how He will use my inadequacies for His glory. Yeeahh boyeee!
-Conversations with people about who God is...I feel like there is so much that I've learned but still sooo much that I just have no stinkin idea about. I'm just glad that God is bigger than me and in control even when I can't even fathom that. He is provider, healer, sanctifier, shepherd, righteousness, the God that's always been, God most high, Lord, All powerful and Almighty, Peace, and so much more. But most importantly to me, He is my Satisfier. That's a tough one for me becuase I want the things of this world so much sometimes, but God is faithful and He leads me to truth: No one on earth can fill my emptiness and give me what I need. Only He can.
For he satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things. Ps. 107:9
And now it's almost Christmas, so I'm also stoked about that because I'm pretty dang glad God chose to send Jesus to live a perfect life on earth and be our Redeemer. Also I like hanging out with my family...and I'm not gona lie, I do enjoy the presents (:
Alot of other great stuff other than grades happened this semester too:
-I made some super legit friends and deepened other friendships from last year. I'm super blessed by God to have these people in my life. These peeps don't mind that i'm kinda awkward sometimes (ok, alot of the time) and crazy and shy except for not really. They even want me to play the guitar for them, so that's pretty fun (cept for when there's boys present who are straight up beasts on the guitar, that makes my heart beat super fast).
-B-hoot...aka Brooke Hooten and Amanda Jane Foss from the bsm. I don't know how God's brain works (obviously) but I am sure glad He thought it would be a good idea to lead them to Txstate while I am at Txstate. These kids are pretty much amazing and I love getting to hang out with them and just get to be real with them. I love that it was like this from the very beginning and that more than anything else, these girls/ladies/"women"/whatever you want to call them love Jesus more than anything else and seek His will for their lives. Woodangyeah! You guys rock my socks off.
-My small group girls...as disheartening as it was sometimes to only have 2 girls when everyone else's group was pretty much literally overflowing (okk, not literally), God really used our time together and I'm so thankful now for a small group where we could be open and honest, even if it took awhile to get there. It's also definitely at least tried to teach me about responsibility...stupid talents! (: But yeah, last semester was a blast and I'm looking forward to what God will do next semester, and how He will use my inadequacies for His glory. Yeeahh boyeee!
-Conversations with people about who God is...I feel like there is so much that I've learned but still sooo much that I just have no stinkin idea about. I'm just glad that God is bigger than me and in control even when I can't even fathom that. He is provider, healer, sanctifier, shepherd, righteousness, the God that's always been, God most high, Lord, All powerful and Almighty, Peace, and so much more. But most importantly to me, He is my Satisfier. That's a tough one for me becuase I want the things of this world so much sometimes, but God is faithful and He leads me to truth: No one on earth can fill my emptiness and give me what I need. Only He can.
For he satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things. Ps. 107:9
And now it's almost Christmas, so I'm also stoked about that because I'm pretty dang glad God chose to send Jesus to live a perfect life on earth and be our Redeemer. Also I like hanging out with my family...and I'm not gona lie, I do enjoy the presents (:
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Psalm 62:5-8
Ps. 62:5-8
"Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; He is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge."
Dang. Can I just say that it has been awhile since my soul found the rest I needed in God? I've been shaken. God hasn't been my fortress, people have.
And that pretty much always sucks. Because no matter how great and amazing people can be, they still let you down. This might be because I build them up way too high in the first place and placed crazy expectations on them (uhh, yeah, I don't like it when people do that to me...). Also, maybe I realize that people aren't GOd, so they can't always be right and definitely can't always make me happy. That's where I get in the way and try to do the impossible of measuring up to the quite possibly not even real standards I feel like people want me to live up to...
How silly.
I'm not even sure about the whole part about my salvation and my honor depending on God. I mean sure, I get the salvation part. Without God, there wouldn't even be salvation (Thanks God!) But my honor depends on God...what does that even mean?
Welp, honor is honesty, fairness, or integrity in one's beliefs and actions. OR a source of credit or distinction. OR high respect, as far as worth, merit, or rank. OR high public esteem; fame; glory;, etc...
Depend means to rely on; place trust in or to rely for support, maintenance, help, etc. Or to put trust in, rely on, be sure of. To be influenced or determined by... (thanks dictionary.com)
So yeah, think about that stuff, and if you were lost, maybe it makes more sense now. It does to me.
My salvations and my source of credit, any kind of worth, merit, fame, or glory I get, is determined alone by God.
So. The solution to my problems? Trust in God at ALL TIMES, and pour my heart out to Him, because HE is my refuge! Of course, sometimes it's hard to trust in God, who you can't see and maybe have trouble hearing over your own voice and/or thoughts...ya don't have to tell me. But He tells us to, he wants us to. He even tells us to pour out our hearts to Him! Yeah, like all the stuff you try to keep secret and hide because it's bad or it just sucks or it's scary or maybe stupid...just telllllll Him.
He's our refuge. He's the one that takes care of all our crap and picks us up and keeps us safe. He fixes us when we're broken and rebuilds our foundation when we've been shaken. He gives us a reason to hope.
So, hey God, I'm gona find rest for my crazy soul in You alone.
Maybe next time Africa.
"Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; He is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge."
Dang. Can I just say that it has been awhile since my soul found the rest I needed in God? I've been shaken. God hasn't been my fortress, people have.
And that pretty much always sucks. Because no matter how great and amazing people can be, they still let you down. This might be because I build them up way too high in the first place and placed crazy expectations on them (uhh, yeah, I don't like it when people do that to me...). Also, maybe I realize that people aren't GOd, so they can't always be right and definitely can't always make me happy. That's where I get in the way and try to do the impossible of measuring up to the quite possibly not even real standards I feel like people want me to live up to...
How silly.
I'm not even sure about the whole part about my salvation and my honor depending on God. I mean sure, I get the salvation part. Without God, there wouldn't even be salvation (Thanks God!) But my honor depends on God...what does that even mean?
Welp, honor is honesty, fairness, or integrity in one's beliefs and actions. OR a source of credit or distinction. OR high respect, as far as worth, merit, or rank. OR high public esteem; fame; glory;, etc...
Depend means to rely on; place trust in or to rely for support, maintenance, help, etc. Or to put trust in, rely on, be sure of. To be influenced or determined by... (thanks dictionary.com)
So yeah, think about that stuff, and if you were lost, maybe it makes more sense now. It does to me.
My salvations and my source of credit, any kind of worth, merit, fame, or glory I get, is determined alone by God.
So. The solution to my problems? Trust in God at ALL TIMES, and pour my heart out to Him, because HE is my refuge! Of course, sometimes it's hard to trust in God, who you can't see and maybe have trouble hearing over your own voice and/or thoughts...ya don't have to tell me. But He tells us to, he wants us to. He even tells us to pour out our hearts to Him! Yeah, like all the stuff you try to keep secret and hide because it's bad or it just sucks or it's scary or maybe stupid...just telllllll Him.
He's our refuge. He's the one that takes care of all our crap and picks us up and keeps us safe. He fixes us when we're broken and rebuilds our foundation when we've been shaken. He gives us a reason to hope.
So, hey God, I'm gona find rest for my crazy soul in You alone.
Maybe next time Africa.
Monday, December 6, 2010
if you ain't got no money take your broke, broke home.
I'm really cold. Like, reeeealllyyyy cold. You wouldn't believe all the clothes I'm wearing right now...Yep, i'm gona tell you: socks, leggings, pajama pants, a cami and longsleeve tee, a sweater, and my texas state hoodie. And I'm not gona lie, I'm pretty dang excited to get under my covers very soon! Basically winter is not my season.
The only good thing about winter is having a break from school, but it's not even as good as summer...
Also my phone is pretty much up a creek without a paddle. AKA broken...It's kind of really super great and yet quite annoying at the same time. It's nice to not worry about texts for awhile, funny or helpful (or apparently just really stupid)as they may be. It's kind of lovely in a way not being able to communicate with anyone. at least not by phone. But at the same time, i'm totally bummed because I really wanted to text Jason a line from Almost Famous but now i can't. :/ Also, I have some pretty wonderful friends in other states and who knows if they have texted or called me and are just thinking i'm a straight up jerk because i don't answer them. WHO KNOWS?
Anyway, this blog is basically pointless because I was gona write wayyy more than this but everytime I tried (which was like 3 or 4) it was weird and my thoughts are crazy unorganized and stupid. So for now, just know that I'm getting warmer (alittle) and that I don't hate you, I just can't talk to you via phone. Also please remember that summer is better than winter.
The end.
The only good thing about winter is having a break from school, but it's not even as good as summer...
Also my phone is pretty much up a creek without a paddle. AKA broken...It's kind of really super great and yet quite annoying at the same time. It's nice to not worry about texts for awhile, funny or helpful (or apparently just really stupid)as they may be. It's kind of lovely in a way not being able to communicate with anyone. at least not by phone. But at the same time, i'm totally bummed because I really wanted to text Jason a line from Almost Famous but now i can't. :/ Also, I have some pretty wonderful friends in other states and who knows if they have texted or called me and are just thinking i'm a straight up jerk because i don't answer them. WHO KNOWS?
Anyway, this blog is basically pointless because I was gona write wayyy more than this but everytime I tried (which was like 3 or 4) it was weird and my thoughts are crazy unorganized and stupid. So for now, just know that I'm getting warmer (alittle) and that I don't hate you, I just can't talk to you via phone. Also please remember that summer is better than winter.
The end.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
If you can't beat them, join them!
So I've decided that one night, I'm gona go ask the skateboard boys to teach me how to do it. Maybe when I am bored, or maybe just when I need a study break (it's that time of year ya know...), or just whenever. I don't know when, but I'm gona do it.
I'm just gona walk outside of my lovely house at 1245 at night and go right over to those boys and say "umm, hi. Can you teach me how to skateboard and be cool like you guys?" And then of course, they will look at me like i'm a total crazy and be like "well you probly can't do it because you're a girl..." To which I will say, "pshhhhh. Yeah, and I'm shy. pahaha. Let's do it."
Actually I'm just kidding...but just about the conversation part. I'm really gona go outside and talk to them one night and become friends so that they will want to teach me how to skateboard. I think this could be a really valuable skill to have, ya know? I mean, what if my car breaks down? What if I get bored? What if I want to join the party of skateboarding down the street in the absolute middle of the night keeping the neighbors awake? (Obviously, this is a secret-not-so-secret-anymore desire of mine. No shame.) What if I just want to live alittle?
So yeah, I'm pretty excited. I'm alittle nervous, but mostly just excited! Brian told me to watch out which ones I hang with because he and jordan saw some 30 year olds who don't have jobs or lives or wives out there today. I told him "hello, candidate for a wife RIGHT HERE!" haha. jk. I told him those were not the guys I was gona talk to anyway. But look at him, lookin out for me (:
Jordan also looks out for me. His words of advice were "yeah, if you can't beat them, join them." So that's what I'm going to do!
I'm just gona walk outside of my lovely house at 1245 at night and go right over to those boys and say "umm, hi. Can you teach me how to skateboard and be cool like you guys?" And then of course, they will look at me like i'm a total crazy and be like "well you probly can't do it because you're a girl..." To which I will say, "pshhhhh. Yeah, and I'm shy. pahaha. Let's do it."
Actually I'm just kidding...but just about the conversation part. I'm really gona go outside and talk to them one night and become friends so that they will want to teach me how to skateboard. I think this could be a really valuable skill to have, ya know? I mean, what if my car breaks down? What if I get bored? What if I want to join the party of skateboarding down the street in the absolute middle of the night keeping the neighbors awake? (Obviously, this is a secret-not-so-secret-anymore desire of mine. No shame.) What if I just want to live alittle?
So yeah, I'm pretty excited. I'm alittle nervous, but mostly just excited! Brian told me to watch out which ones I hang with because he and jordan saw some 30 year olds who don't have jobs or lives or wives out there today. I told him "hello, candidate for a wife RIGHT HERE!" haha. jk. I told him those were not the guys I was gona talk to anyway. But look at him, lookin out for me (:
Jordan also looks out for me. His words of advice were "yeah, if you can't beat them, join them." So that's what I'm going to do!
Sunday, November 14, 2010
6 months later, here ya go...
This summer my wonderful roommate/partner showed me this song. I pretended to like it, and then i went to take a shower and cried the whole time. Yeah, that's alittle depressing, I realize this. A few months after, a friend of mine told me I should listen to this song. I didn't remember what the name of the one was that had made me cry, so I figured ok, why not? So I looked it up and listened to it and I texted my friend back and told him that it was so sad. (He didn't seem to think so, but whatever haha.)
But anyway, as I listened to it for the 3rd time, I kinda fell in love with it... It still makes me sad because I know there's people who feel like this and sometimes even I feel like this. I know, I know, enough with the depressing stuff. But lucky for me/us, God does love us for us so that's really refreshing. Sometimes I work really hard to be this awesome great person, and it's pretty much all in vain, because when I do that, I'm trying to make myself look good, not God. Of course, this never works because I can't look good without God. I forget this. Quite often. I also seem to forget that God is the one who made me, and I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I am made in His image even. So that's pretty flipin sweet.
I pray that I can remember that whenever I am the third wheel, the lame one, the loner, the one with bad grades, the shy/not-so-shy one, the plain-jane, the boring one, the unloved one, He still loves me for me. And that after the tears, the frustration, the unbelief, the doubting, and the fears, I have a smile on my face, because my Savior has redeemed me. And when God looks at me, He doesn't see all my yucky crap, He just sees His awesome Son, making me lovely.
So, yay God! (:
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
the pros and cons of summer.
we're just gona go every other so you don't get too depressed or extremely happy over one or the other.
Pro: there's absolutely nothing to do.
Con: there's absolutely nothing to do.
Pro: i can sleep as late as i want!
Con: i can sleep as late as i want :/
[the reason that this is a con is because monday night i went to bed at 12 and got up at 1130. then i was tired allllll day. except then at night i still didn't want to go to sleep...
Pro: there is NO SCHOOL and i get to hang out with the baby alot. and hold her (:
[she's cute!]
Con: being that there is no school, that means there are no friends from school and no going to the bsm when you're bored.
Pro: I officially don't work at Ranchito anymore!!!
Con: I officially don't make money anymore, except for when i babysit.
Pro: South Carolina in less than a week!! (:
Con: No Ohio...? :/
Pro: when I get back from Arlington, Ashlyn will be so big!
Con: but I won't get to see her for a good while.
Pro: I don't have to wake up early to run
Con: who am I kidding, I'm not gona run in the hot. and by the time night comes around I'm not feelin it at all.
Pro: i have plenty of time to call my friends who i never see.
Con: i still won't do it. lol
Ok well. i guess that is all i can think of for now. I have a very busy day ahead of me, booked full of nothing, but i just thought i would treat you with a blog first...since it's been like over a month! (:
peace.
Pro: there's absolutely nothing to do.
Con: there's absolutely nothing to do.
Pro: i can sleep as late as i want!
Con: i can sleep as late as i want :/
[the reason that this is a con is because monday night i went to bed at 12 and got up at 1130. then i was tired allllll day. except then at night i still didn't want to go to sleep...
Pro: there is NO SCHOOL and i get to hang out with the baby alot. and hold her (:
[she's cute!]
Con: being that there is no school, that means there are no friends from school and no going to the bsm when you're bored.
Pro: I officially don't work at Ranchito anymore!!!
Con: I officially don't make money anymore, except for when i babysit.
Pro: South Carolina in less than a week!! (:
Con: No Ohio...? :/
Pro: when I get back from Arlington, Ashlyn will be so big!
Con: but I won't get to see her for a good while.
Pro: I don't have to wake up early to run
Con: who am I kidding, I'm not gona run in the hot. and by the time night comes around I'm not feelin it at all.
Pro: i have plenty of time to call my friends who i never see.
Con: i still won't do it. lol
Ok well. i guess that is all i can think of for now. I have a very busy day ahead of me, booked full of nothing, but i just thought i would treat you with a blog first...since it's been like over a month! (:
peace.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Behold you have come
over the hills
upon the mountain.
To me, you will run.
My beloved, you've captured my heart.
Won't you dance with me, Oh Lover of my soul, to the song of all songs?
With you, I will go.
You are my love,
you are my fair one.
The winter has passed
and the springtime has come.
Won't you dance with me, Oh Lover of my soul, to the song of all songs?
Romance me, oh Lover of my soul, to song the song of all songs.
Please God, dance with me til the last song, even if i suck at it.
And romance me because right now, you are the only guy that i need.
over the hills
upon the mountain.
To me, you will run.
My beloved, you've captured my heart.
Won't you dance with me, Oh Lover of my soul, to the song of all songs?
With you, I will go.
You are my love,
you are my fair one.
The winter has passed
and the springtime has come.
Won't you dance with me, Oh Lover of my soul, to the song of all songs?
Romance me, oh Lover of my soul, to song the song of all songs.
Please God, dance with me til the last song, even if i suck at it.
And romance me because right now, you are the only guy that i need.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
since i seem to be making a habit out of staying up late...
so, just a quick note, because alot of things happened in my life today that are worth taking note of ...at least for me.
1. I almost signed a lease to live with Jilly beans, Gabi, and Katy today, but then the Heights said they already filled up all the extra spaces... Mehh, i shoulda known because that's what happened at the Edge, and the good places go fast i guess...
1.5 But...i feel alittle relieved because i've never had to pay for anything that expensive every month and i was really scared. I know it has to happen sooner or later, but for now, later is sounding very fine with me!
1.8 I'm still sad though, because it woulda been superrrr legit to live with them! But at least we determined that we can still borrow each others clothes, thank goodness... (:
2. I love that I have like 37 pictures of Clayton on my phone, all of them in which she is looking a-fool and just being very clayton-esque. I love that kid!
3. I started looking at what classes I need for next semester and started getting alittle freaked out. It's always a stressful time trying to pick my schedule...I want it to be perfect, but how am i supposed to know which times are going to be perfect so far in advance??
4. I went to sonic today...enough said! (:
5. 24 hours of prayer is going on RIGHT NOW as we SPEAK! (yes, i know we're not speaking...) I went from 10-11, and sat in the really hot prayer room with Aubrey. It was really cool. And surprisingly alot easier than I thought it would be to pray for a whole hour. I've been practicing though, so that might help. (not practicing praying for an hour, just i've been trying to talk to God alot more through out my day...)
6. I saw Case today for the first time in like 2 weeks or something! And I just want to confirm that he's still like really nice to me. We talked about babies and how they "are too small!" and some other weird stuff...haha. it was fun.
7. Everybody thinks its soo ridiculous that I want to get married by the time I'm 23...well, it's not! Especially when all my friends are like 19-20 and are definitely getting married all the time. No exceptions...except for a few. (:
7.5 Anyway, just call me...the girl from 27 dresses, because I'm well on my way! Which is totally cool. the only downside is that the dresses tend to cost money...
8. if i stay up much later than this, there is no way I will be bright eyed and bushy tailed when it's time to get up in the morning and run...
8.2 But alas, I don't actually have a tail, so this might be a good thing.
9. I WANT A STACY VOICEMAIL!!!!!! and a phone convo even. I miss that kid mucho!
10. Speaking of Stacy, hello every summer missionary that I pretty much ever talked to. I miss you for sure. Call me. ( Because I think we all know, i won't call you. Not because i hate you, just because i suck at phones)
11. This is just getting ridiculous. Now i'm just coming up with random stupid stuff so that I don't have to go to bed...I mean shoot, if i keep this up, we're gona be all the way to number 584...and who wants to read all that anyway?!
So then 12. Good NIGHTTTTTT. (:
1. I almost signed a lease to live with Jilly beans, Gabi, and Katy today, but then the Heights said they already filled up all the extra spaces... Mehh, i shoulda known because that's what happened at the Edge, and the good places go fast i guess...
1.5 But...i feel alittle relieved because i've never had to pay for anything that expensive every month and i was really scared. I know it has to happen sooner or later, but for now, later is sounding very fine with me!
1.8 I'm still sad though, because it woulda been superrrr legit to live with them! But at least we determined that we can still borrow each others clothes, thank goodness... (:
2. I love that I have like 37 pictures of Clayton on my phone, all of them in which she is looking a-fool and just being very clayton-esque. I love that kid!
3. I started looking at what classes I need for next semester and started getting alittle freaked out. It's always a stressful time trying to pick my schedule...I want it to be perfect, but how am i supposed to know which times are going to be perfect so far in advance??
4. I went to sonic today...enough said! (:
5. 24 hours of prayer is going on RIGHT NOW as we SPEAK! (yes, i know we're not speaking...) I went from 10-11, and sat in the really hot prayer room with Aubrey. It was really cool. And surprisingly alot easier than I thought it would be to pray for a whole hour. I've been practicing though, so that might help. (not practicing praying for an hour, just i've been trying to talk to God alot more through out my day...)
6. I saw Case today for the first time in like 2 weeks or something! And I just want to confirm that he's still like really nice to me. We talked about babies and how they "are too small!" and some other weird stuff...haha. it was fun.
7. Everybody thinks its soo ridiculous that I want to get married by the time I'm 23...well, it's not! Especially when all my friends are like 19-20 and are definitely getting married all the time. No exceptions...except for a few. (:
7.5 Anyway, just call me...the girl from 27 dresses, because I'm well on my way! Which is totally cool. the only downside is that the dresses tend to cost money...
8. if i stay up much later than this, there is no way I will be bright eyed and bushy tailed when it's time to get up in the morning and run...
8.2 But alas, I don't actually have a tail, so this might be a good thing.
9. I WANT A STACY VOICEMAIL!!!!!! and a phone convo even. I miss that kid mucho!
10. Speaking of Stacy, hello every summer missionary that I pretty much ever talked to. I miss you for sure. Call me. ( Because I think we all know, i won't call you. Not because i hate you, just because i suck at phones)
11. This is just getting ridiculous. Now i'm just coming up with random stupid stuff so that I don't have to go to bed...I mean shoot, if i keep this up, we're gona be all the way to number 584...and who wants to read all that anyway?!
So then 12. Good NIGHTTTTTT. (:
Monday, April 5, 2010
Sometimes I stay up late because my brain won't turn off.
Hello all 9 of you who may or may not actually read my blog... (:
Yeah, just like the rest of you, i haven't written in awhile because school was like "oh hello, i'm gona RUIN your life!! have fun."
Anyway, last night I was thinking about random stuff...I guess because it was Easter I was thinking about how I take Jesus for granted a LOT, and I don't thank God enough for sending His son to die for my sins, and rise again (because he's legit...). And then I was thinking why did God even do it all. Like not in a bad way or like I'm not glad He did. But all the sudden I was just like "why in america did God make Jesus die on a cross because we all suck at life?"
And why did he make us in the first place? If you think about it, God doesn't need us. Fact.
Like, God's already perfect, but he decided to bring us into the world...to mess everything up. And the funny thing is, He knew we would...Yet here we all are anyway. Because for whatever reason, he loves us. This is definitely crazy to me. How could he love every one of us before he even made us? And how in the world could he love us even though he straight up KNEW we would break his heart again and again? I mean, why put yourself through that?
I guess (to answer my own question), it's kinda like that stupid philosophy question: Would it be better to bring someone into the world if it was for a greater purpose, even if it means alot of yucky suffering and heart ache and questioning and hurting? Or would it be better to just live in a lame, safe, really boring bubble where nothing could ever hurt you or make you think and question stuff? The answer seems obvious in this case.
...And I guess if I ponder it long and hard enough, I realize that the answer is the same for my God question.
It is better to go through some really hard, crazy, sometimes disheartening times for a greater purpose. I think God knew that, and of course, that's why He chose to do it. And I think he's put that knowledge in the people's hearts who have the holy spirit. I think God's greater purpose in creating us was so that glory would ultimately be brought to his name. And that's our greater purpose also; to fulfill God's plan of making HIS name famous.
I guess he knew we would screw up 80 times a day along the way, but he also knew that if we are willing to trust in Him to guide us through this mess of life it's gona be so worth it.
So I just wana say thanks to "the big guy upstairs", as jenny beans calls God, for choosing to create us. Me. the mess that I am. So that I can live my life giving You the glory in everything I do...or at least attemting to. Thanks for never giving up on me and for loving me like a freakin hurricane! You are the best (:
Also, on a slightly less profound note, I played Weston tonight!! Man, it's been a good while! [stupid school!] But I took him outside on the back "porch", tuned him up, put on the capo and played How He Loves (and some other stuff). ...Just me and Weston and God...and it was great. (:
The end. Love Julie, who will very soon be 19!
Yeah, just like the rest of you, i haven't written in awhile because school was like "oh hello, i'm gona RUIN your life!! have fun."
Anyway, last night I was thinking about random stuff...I guess because it was Easter I was thinking about how I take Jesus for granted a LOT, and I don't thank God enough for sending His son to die for my sins, and rise again (because he's legit...). And then I was thinking why did God even do it all. Like not in a bad way or like I'm not glad He did. But all the sudden I was just like "why in america did God make Jesus die on a cross because we all suck at life?"
And why did he make us in the first place? If you think about it, God doesn't need us. Fact.
Like, God's already perfect, but he decided to bring us into the world...to mess everything up. And the funny thing is, He knew we would...Yet here we all are anyway. Because for whatever reason, he loves us. This is definitely crazy to me. How could he love every one of us before he even made us? And how in the world could he love us even though he straight up KNEW we would break his heart again and again? I mean, why put yourself through that?
I guess (to answer my own question), it's kinda like that stupid philosophy question: Would it be better to bring someone into the world if it was for a greater purpose, even if it means alot of yucky suffering and heart ache and questioning and hurting? Or would it be better to just live in a lame, safe, really boring bubble where nothing could ever hurt you or make you think and question stuff? The answer seems obvious in this case.
...And I guess if I ponder it long and hard enough, I realize that the answer is the same for my God question.
It is better to go through some really hard, crazy, sometimes disheartening times for a greater purpose. I think God knew that, and of course, that's why He chose to do it. And I think he's put that knowledge in the people's hearts who have the holy spirit. I think God's greater purpose in creating us was so that glory would ultimately be brought to his name. And that's our greater purpose also; to fulfill God's plan of making HIS name famous.
I guess he knew we would screw up 80 times a day along the way, but he also knew that if we are willing to trust in Him to guide us through this mess of life it's gona be so worth it.
So I just wana say thanks to "the big guy upstairs", as jenny beans calls God, for choosing to create us. Me. the mess that I am. So that I can live my life giving You the glory in everything I do...or at least attemting to. Thanks for never giving up on me and for loving me like a freakin hurricane! You are the best (:
Also, on a slightly less profound note, I played Weston tonight!! Man, it's been a good while! [stupid school!] But I took him outside on the back "porch", tuned him up, put on the capo and played How He Loves (and some other stuff). ...Just me and Weston and God...and it was great. (:
The end. Love Julie, who will very soon be 19!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
We don't drink coffee...
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So I just spent the last 3 hours kind of studying and writing a dumb paper for my Health Ed. class. I also took a bio quiz, but that didn't go so well...hehe. its cool though, i have 3 chances. Then I looked up what I was supposed to study for my phil test on thursday and I decided it was time for a break! haha. But I still feel somewhat productive.
On a funny-ish note, there's definitely a middle aged man chillin in here playing world of warcraft. (is that one word? war craft? warcraft? i dont know. ps. i dont care) I know I do ALOTTTT of stuff that makes no sense and is for sure a waste of my time, but it's just so amusing to me when people devote 789 hours to playing that...and it reminds me of my algebra 2 teacher...and he was a weirdy! (But i'm not judging)
Anyway. I decided I pretty much love this place. Mochas. It's way easier to do my homework here. at least today. And it's also warmer here (: Sometimes there's even cute boys, which is always a plus.
I remember coming here when I was real young...ok, when I was like 15. One time I came here the night I got back from Super Summer and I really loved it because I think I was with most, if not all, of my siblings. Also it was just novel to me that I was old enough to go out late at night and get coffee. :D
My dad and I used to come here sometimes too. I guess that was before the days of Chiro...but considering how slow and struggling chiro is right now, we might see those days again...(super sad!) Anyway. It's always fun to get coffee with dad. I will always get a mocha frappacino and he will always get a vanilla bean one...so what if we are predictable? (:
Oooh weird. One time I even came here with little John and Herman...(what?) And I got my mocha frappe, of course, but then we just took it to go, and on the way home in Little John's truck, his throat was getting all closey and he almost died cuz he could smell the chocolate or something! I felt bad, but not that bad because it was good. And he maybe was faking it alittle...just sayin.
(uhh, PS. Little John used to be super alergic to chocolate)
My favorite time though, was when Jason, Jenna, Erica, and I were all here and we were taking pictures (I wana say on Jasons laptop, but I could just be making that up...) Anyway, it was a freakin blast. There's this one picture of Jenna, Jason, and me all on the couch, and we're all wearing blue shirts. And we are really cute. It's probly my favorite picture. ever!
Good times, good times. What is it about coffee shops that is so great? I don't even like coffee!! (:
So I just spent the last 3 hours kind of studying and writing a dumb paper for my Health Ed. class. I also took a bio quiz, but that didn't go so well...hehe. its cool though, i have 3 chances. Then I looked up what I was supposed to study for my phil test on thursday and I decided it was time for a break! haha. But I still feel somewhat productive.
On a funny-ish note, there's definitely a middle aged man chillin in here playing world of warcraft. (is that one word? war craft? warcraft? i dont know. ps. i dont care) I know I do ALOTTTT of stuff that makes no sense and is for sure a waste of my time, but it's just so amusing to me when people devote 789 hours to playing that...and it reminds me of my algebra 2 teacher...and he was a weirdy! (But i'm not judging)
Anyway. I decided I pretty much love this place. Mochas. It's way easier to do my homework here. at least today. And it's also warmer here (: Sometimes there's even cute boys, which is always a plus.
I remember coming here when I was real young...ok, when I was like 15. One time I came here the night I got back from Super Summer and I really loved it because I think I was with most, if not all, of my siblings. Also it was just novel to me that I was old enough to go out late at night and get coffee. :D
My dad and I used to come here sometimes too. I guess that was before the days of Chiro...but considering how slow and struggling chiro is right now, we might see those days again...(super sad!) Anyway. It's always fun to get coffee with dad. I will always get a mocha frappacino and he will always get a vanilla bean one...so what if we are predictable? (:
Oooh weird. One time I even came here with little John and Herman...(what?) And I got my mocha frappe, of course, but then we just took it to go, and on the way home in Little John's truck, his throat was getting all closey and he almost died cuz he could smell the chocolate or something! I felt bad, but not that bad because it was good. And he maybe was faking it alittle...just sayin.
(uhh, PS. Little John used to be super alergic to chocolate)
My favorite time though, was when Jason, Jenna, Erica, and I were all here and we were taking pictures (I wana say on Jasons laptop, but I could just be making that up...) Anyway, it was a freakin blast. There's this one picture of Jenna, Jason, and me all on the couch, and we're all wearing blue shirts. And we are really cute. It's probly my favorite picture. ever!
Good times, good times. What is it about coffee shops that is so great? I don't even like coffee!! (:
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Sunday, March 14, 2010
and I thought I didn't have time to blog.
So, I would just like to start out by saying, I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy that it's not freezing anymore!!! Seriously, I was getting so tired of it and it was lasting foreverrr. But now, I think it's finally gone, at least for the most part. And this of course means many fun times at Sewell, eating ice cream, driving with the windows down, not having to wait 4 years for the windows on my car to become not icey, wearing shorts and cute shirts that are not covered up by a million and ten sweaters/jackets, etc. I feel like this years winter was way colder than last year, and I personally hated it! So, again. Thank you God, that it is over. (like, for real, I'm thanking God, not just throwing his name around. )
Speaking of God, last week at Refuge (hmm. 2 weeks ago?) Emily jumped in on my small group (definitely not complaining :) and challenged us to read Romans 12 every day for a week. So, I kinda alittle bit took her up on it. I didn't read it everyyy day, but almost. And it's been pretty sweet. It reminded me alot of last summer, because Brennan really loved that verse, and therefore I got kinda into it. I really like the part that talks about no longer conforming to the world, but being transformed by the renewing of your mind...so that you can know God's pleasing and perfect will. Thats pretty tough for me, but I'm definitely trying. Cuz I always wonder why I can't seem to figure out God' will for me, but it's probly because I tend to like to conform to the world. But anyway, me and God are working on it (:
Next up on my things to talk about on my blog would be about the 50 dollars I made today! Yeah, I'm pretty excited because i like money. And I know that is no good, yet here I am, still loving it. [biz, DONT JUDGE ME :] But it makes me excited to have actual cash on me because since I stopped bussing (woop woop!) I basically never have cash. So yeah, 50 bones for babysitting 3 young children that I love and are hilarious...when they're not crying because we "always get to aine wants to do!!" (: Anyway, it was a fun day, and afterwards, I treated myself to Panda Express, got some Sweet Fire chicken, and it was amazing. (:
Cool. So, I'm not gona lie, spring break went by way too amazingly fast!! But i'm also not gona lie, it was basically the most legit spring break I've ever had. Starting last Friday night after I got off work. I went to blockbuster because I definitely could not NOT watch She's the Man. So i rented it and realized that i locked my keys in the car. Awesome! But it turned out ok. Then I went home and watched the movie...with Jason, Melaina, Jordan, Ben Fagan, and after awhile, even Big James. Super funny.
Saturday, my sister had her first baby shower. It was super fun! There were mostly old ladies that we didn't know, but still, a fun time was had by all. And I got to write down all the things that she got. I asked her and my sister in law what I should title the list (dumb, i know...whatever) and they came up with things like "present list" or "stuff I got at the babyshower" blah blah blah. I called it "Wooooooo presents!!" ...cuz I'm creative :D
Sunday night I went for a run, 3 miles, and it felt dang good. Then Jordan, Josh, Aimee, Ben, and I all went to Denny's and had a straight up blast! And we took alot of pictures...super funny. (check facebook. mine and aims :)
Monday I....hmmmmm. Oh yeah! Drove to Austin and kept it weird... (:
And had lunch with Ezy and scored myself a new shirt which i've gotten quite a few compliments on.
Tuesday I hung out with Victorio at Sewell. He let me drive his car and bought me ice cream...need I say more?
Wednesday Aimee and I ate at ranchito in Juans section and then saw Valentines day. Pretty great movie...who knew ashton Kutcher was still cool?! Also I waitress trained again and I made 20 bucks. Off of 4 tables.
Thursday, brunch with Jackie at Chiro, work, and another baby shower...aka more cake and cute pictures. Unfortunately, I didn't get to make the "woooooo presents" list that time :/ Then at night, Jordan, Ben and I went to Josh's and hung out and watched Brian Regan. And ate some really hot salsa and I got to sit on my favorite couch of all time.
Friday, started out lame, but got better. I attempted to do "crazy things" with Aimee buttttttt...lol. Turned out she's not as crazy as I could have hoped...haha just kidding aimee!! We had a super lame/kinda fun anyway game of cops and robbers and then we tried to dye a part of my hair teal...it didn't work. but what the heck. I only wasted 4 dollars. and I still had a blast.
Saturday was my favorite sister's birthday! We hung out with her friend Tiffany and her cutest baby in America, played catan (I almosttttttttt won!!! But then Jenna did...it WAS her birthday...) and went to Sewell. Thennn, around 10 pm I went to HEB and frantically looked for Jill because, go figure, her phone had died! :D Then Jill came over and we became supernatural, legit best friends! I love that girl!
Sunday came wayyyyyyy too early and I almost missed Jordans church. but i did not. Then I babysat for hours, got my monay, and panda express, and have been kickin it up with Jenna and Brian. (this i have missed.)
It's funny how long, yet at the same time, super short, a week can seem.
Anyway. Now I'm off to look up plane tickets for SOUTH friggin CAROLINA! :D
Goodnight. have fun reading this book...
Speaking of God, last week at Refuge (hmm. 2 weeks ago?) Emily jumped in on my small group (definitely not complaining :) and challenged us to read Romans 12 every day for a week. So, I kinda alittle bit took her up on it. I didn't read it everyyy day, but almost. And it's been pretty sweet. It reminded me alot of last summer, because Brennan really loved that verse, and therefore I got kinda into it. I really like the part that talks about no longer conforming to the world, but being transformed by the renewing of your mind...so that you can know God's pleasing and perfect will. Thats pretty tough for me, but I'm definitely trying. Cuz I always wonder why I can't seem to figure out God' will for me, but it's probly because I tend to like to conform to the world. But anyway, me and God are working on it (:
Next up on my things to talk about on my blog would be about the 50 dollars I made today! Yeah, I'm pretty excited because i like money. And I know that is no good, yet here I am, still loving it. [biz, DONT JUDGE ME :] But it makes me excited to have actual cash on me because since I stopped bussing (woop woop!) I basically never have cash. So yeah, 50 bones for babysitting 3 young children that I love and are hilarious...when they're not crying because we "always get to aine wants to do!!" (: Anyway, it was a fun day, and afterwards, I treated myself to Panda Express, got some Sweet Fire chicken, and it was amazing. (:
Cool. So, I'm not gona lie, spring break went by way too amazingly fast!! But i'm also not gona lie, it was basically the most legit spring break I've ever had. Starting last Friday night after I got off work. I went to blockbuster because I definitely could not NOT watch She's the Man. So i rented it and realized that i locked my keys in the car. Awesome! But it turned out ok. Then I went home and watched the movie...with Jason, Melaina, Jordan, Ben Fagan, and after awhile, even Big James. Super funny.
Saturday, my sister had her first baby shower. It was super fun! There were mostly old ladies that we didn't know, but still, a fun time was had by all. And I got to write down all the things that she got. I asked her and my sister in law what I should title the list (dumb, i know...whatever) and they came up with things like "present list" or "stuff I got at the babyshower" blah blah blah. I called it "Wooooooo presents!!" ...cuz I'm creative :D
Sunday night I went for a run, 3 miles, and it felt dang good. Then Jordan, Josh, Aimee, Ben, and I all went to Denny's and had a straight up blast! And we took alot of pictures...super funny. (check facebook. mine and aims :)
Monday I....hmmmmm. Oh yeah! Drove to Austin and kept it weird... (:
And had lunch with Ezy and scored myself a new shirt which i've gotten quite a few compliments on.
Tuesday I hung out with Victorio at Sewell. He let me drive his car and bought me ice cream...need I say more?
Wednesday Aimee and I ate at ranchito in Juans section and then saw Valentines day. Pretty great movie...who knew ashton Kutcher was still cool?! Also I waitress trained again and I made 20 bucks. Off of 4 tables.
Thursday, brunch with Jackie at Chiro, work, and another baby shower...aka more cake and cute pictures. Unfortunately, I didn't get to make the "woooooo presents" list that time :/ Then at night, Jordan, Ben and I went to Josh's and hung out and watched Brian Regan. And ate some really hot salsa and I got to sit on my favorite couch of all time.
Friday, started out lame, but got better. I attempted to do "crazy things" with Aimee buttttttt...lol. Turned out she's not as crazy as I could have hoped...haha just kidding aimee!! We had a super lame/kinda fun anyway game of cops and robbers and then we tried to dye a part of my hair teal...it didn't work. but what the heck. I only wasted 4 dollars. and I still had a blast.
Saturday was my favorite sister's birthday! We hung out with her friend Tiffany and her cutest baby in America, played catan (I almosttttttttt won!!! But then Jenna did...it WAS her birthday...) and went to Sewell. Thennn, around 10 pm I went to HEB and frantically looked for Jill because, go figure, her phone had died! :D Then Jill came over and we became supernatural, legit best friends! I love that girl!
Sunday came wayyyyyyy too early and I almost missed Jordans church. but i did not. Then I babysat for hours, got my monay, and panda express, and have been kickin it up with Jenna and Brian. (this i have missed.)
It's funny how long, yet at the same time, super short, a week can seem.
Anyway. Now I'm off to look up plane tickets for SOUTH friggin CAROLINA! :D
Goodnight. have fun reading this book...
Friday, March 5, 2010
i'll be the best lab partner you ever had... (:
Soooo. today, I had lunch with some really great kids (Emily Lane, Kat, and Kate :) and i am no longer a which wich virgin...!! haha
anyway, the whole time, Emily Lane and Kat are quoting She's the man, while Kate and i are sitting there, laughing along, playing like we know all these quotes too, figuring it's gona stop soon enough...Nosir. they kept right on going!!! like until we left. eventually kate and i just gave up (: But it was quite fun listening to them.
But after lunch, I got really inspired to watch the movie. So, as soon I got off of work, I went to blockbuster, walked in there, and rented the movie. The guys name that was working there was...ahh dang i just forgot :/ and i was thinking when i saw his name that i would not forget it...it was something kinda old school...anyway.
After i paid, i realized that i didn't have my keys...i freaked out alittle. then i went and looked inside the window and i saw my keys in my purse sitting in the passenger seat. so i called jordan. then i called jason. then i called jordan again. and it all got worked out.
So, once we got home, and once my mom was done watching the basketball game, I finally got to watch Shes the man! ...Totally made my night. Especially because Jason and Melaina came home this weekend, so they watched it with me. And Jordan, because he had nothing better to do? haha. And then Ben came home, and watched it too. Thennnnnn Big James even came! what? haha. super funny. I love that all these guys came and watched She's the man with me. made my night (:
anyway. thats pretty much all. and if this doesnt make sense, its just because its really late, i just don't want to go to bed... (:
peace. have fun with this random blog!
anyway, the whole time, Emily Lane and Kat are quoting She's the man, while Kate and i are sitting there, laughing along, playing like we know all these quotes too, figuring it's gona stop soon enough...Nosir. they kept right on going!!! like until we left. eventually kate and i just gave up (: But it was quite fun listening to them.
But after lunch, I got really inspired to watch the movie. So, as soon I got off of work, I went to blockbuster, walked in there, and rented the movie. The guys name that was working there was...ahh dang i just forgot :/ and i was thinking when i saw his name that i would not forget it...it was something kinda old school...anyway.
After i paid, i realized that i didn't have my keys...i freaked out alittle. then i went and looked inside the window and i saw my keys in my purse sitting in the passenger seat. so i called jordan. then i called jason. then i called jordan again. and it all got worked out.
So, once we got home, and once my mom was done watching the basketball game, I finally got to watch Shes the man! ...Totally made my night. Especially because Jason and Melaina came home this weekend, so they watched it with me. And Jordan, because he had nothing better to do? haha. And then Ben came home, and watched it too. Thennnnnn Big James even came! what? haha. super funny. I love that all these guys came and watched She's the man with me. made my night (:
anyway. thats pretty much all. and if this doesnt make sense, its just because its really late, i just don't want to go to bed... (:
peace. have fun with this random blog!
Friday, February 26, 2010
the jammie shuffle
so, since most of my blogs tend to be deep-ish and contemplate-y things, i thought i'd just throw this one out there...because its hilarious. and i love it. soo. enjoy (:
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Ohhh me...
Sometimes I feel like I have noooo idea what to do...
ok actually I feel like that almost everyday, just not always in (what seem to be) huge hard situations.
I know that if I talk to God about it, he will work everything out because that's what he does. He is God and he's in control. Yet at the same time, I tend to feel like that's not enough. I'm the kind of kid that needs reassuring...like as in quite a bit of reassuring. So when I pray and I pray and I pray, and I still don't know what to do, I start getting really freaked out. Also, I get freaked out alot because I kind of tend to change my mind like every other second, based on what people's suggestions/reactions are.
This is horrible. I know. But I do it.
I base my decisions on what other people think because I have this great fear of being judged. I want to do what's right in everyone's eyes...which sucks, being that everyone has different eyes! But, even knowing this fact, I still try to do it, knowing in the end, someone will not agree with me, yet still thinking maybe somehow I can change their point of view.
I guess the moral of this story is that I should just not say anything until I have decided what the exact right thing is, so that way when I start telling people what that is, I won't go changing my mind 892 times. That would be swell.
But alas, I doubt this will ever happen because I just suck at making up/keeping my mind made.
So, in the mean time, I will keep praying that God uses me despite my insecurites, my indecisiveness, my confusedness, myself... I know He can use me in any circumstance, no matter how I got there, if I let him. Well guess what God? I will let you. So, have at it. And if you would like to tell me whats going down or how it's gona work, that would also be totally great. ya know, just if you want to.
Thanks. Have a great day. <3
ok actually I feel like that almost everyday, just not always in (what seem to be) huge hard situations.
I know that if I talk to God about it, he will work everything out because that's what he does. He is God and he's in control. Yet at the same time, I tend to feel like that's not enough. I'm the kind of kid that needs reassuring...like as in quite a bit of reassuring. So when I pray and I pray and I pray, and I still don't know what to do, I start getting really freaked out. Also, I get freaked out alot because I kind of tend to change my mind like every other second, based on what people's suggestions/reactions are.
This is horrible. I know. But I do it.
I base my decisions on what other people think because I have this great fear of being judged. I want to do what's right in everyone's eyes...which sucks, being that everyone has different eyes! But, even knowing this fact, I still try to do it, knowing in the end, someone will not agree with me, yet still thinking maybe somehow I can change their point of view.
I guess the moral of this story is that I should just not say anything until I have decided what the exact right thing is, so that way when I start telling people what that is, I won't go changing my mind 892 times. That would be swell.
But alas, I doubt this will ever happen because I just suck at making up/keeping my mind made.
So, in the mean time, I will keep praying that God uses me despite my insecurites, my indecisiveness, my confusedness, myself... I know He can use me in any circumstance, no matter how I got there, if I let him. Well guess what God? I will let you. So, have at it. And if you would like to tell me whats going down or how it's gona work, that would also be totally great. ya know, just if you want to.
Thanks. Have a great day. <3
Sunday, February 14, 2010
13.1
So, I'm sitting here listening to Justin Bieber (who knew that would ever happen?) putting off reading for Philosophy...but who really can blame me right? Philosophy is dumb.
Anyway. So this morning I woke up at the lovely hour of 4:15. Why, you might ask, would I ever do such a thing as this? Mehh. Because I ran a half marathon is all. No big deal... (: Actually it was super intense and pretty fun. I think though, that kinda like being a bad test taker, I'm also a bad racer...Because when Aubrey and I trained, during all the long runs I felt fine basically! I mean, yeah, I never went exactly 13.1 miles, but I went maybe 12.5 once and I was not dying or feeling like it was taking 89 years to run one little mile or having to peeeee...(luckily I made it :) Anyway, it seemed much harder than I was expecting. But at the same time, it was absolutely amazing. It's funny though because when I feel like something is too hard for me, but I know I can't quit, I just start whining alot and saying alot of bad things in my head...I totally did that today. I think I hit my "wall" or whatever around 10 miles and I was getting sooo annoyed! Haha. I was running by my friend Aubrey and I looked over at her, after what felt like at least 3 miles and said "we really aren't to mile 11 yet??!" I was pretty ticked. And then right after the mile 12 marker (or maybe before?) there was the hugesttt hill in America! I seriously almost died...and I seriously said "...rude!!" (: But I pushed it and I made it up the hill and finished the last mile strong! All in all, it was a fantastic run and I loved it alot.
It was pretty cool because at one point I just felt so stinkin tired and my legs were very sore and hurt-y and I told God that He was gona have to be the one to get me through it...and He totally did. (Duhhh. :) And not to make this into a story with a Bible application that can apply to your life but...It's very cool to think that God already knows what we're going to go through even though we don't and He is totally willing to be there every step of the way. And of course, not just while you happen to be running a half/full marathon, but in all the things that God places on your heart. Even sometimes when you don't know what He wants for your life. (Like say, what your'e going to do this summer...) God already knows the plans He has for you, and they are plans to prosper you, not harm you, and to give you a hope and a future. We will know His will when we seek him with all your heart. (Jer. 29:11, 13) Hello, cool!
Another cool verse that I recently stumbled across is this: "Many, O Lord my God, are the wonders you have dont. The things you have planned for us no one can recount to you...Here I am, I have come. I desire to do your will, O my God. Your law is within my heart." Ps. 40:5a, 7-8. I just think its pretty great how God has the greatest stuff planned for us, but the only way we will know what it is, is to be patient and trust in Him to reveal his will to us in his own time. God is good yo. Don't forget it (:
Peace out for now. Philosophy...here I come.
Anyway. So this morning I woke up at the lovely hour of 4:15. Why, you might ask, would I ever do such a thing as this? Mehh. Because I ran a half marathon is all. No big deal... (: Actually it was super intense and pretty fun. I think though, that kinda like being a bad test taker, I'm also a bad racer...Because when Aubrey and I trained, during all the long runs I felt fine basically! I mean, yeah, I never went exactly 13.1 miles, but I went maybe 12.5 once and I was not dying or feeling like it was taking 89 years to run one little mile or having to peeeee...(luckily I made it :) Anyway, it seemed much harder than I was expecting. But at the same time, it was absolutely amazing. It's funny though because when I feel like something is too hard for me, but I know I can't quit, I just start whining alot and saying alot of bad things in my head...I totally did that today. I think I hit my "wall" or whatever around 10 miles and I was getting sooo annoyed! Haha. I was running by my friend Aubrey and I looked over at her, after what felt like at least 3 miles and said "we really aren't to mile 11 yet??!" I was pretty ticked. And then right after the mile 12 marker (or maybe before?) there was the hugesttt hill in America! I seriously almost died...and I seriously said "...rude!!" (: But I pushed it and I made it up the hill and finished the last mile strong! All in all, it was a fantastic run and I loved it alot.
It was pretty cool because at one point I just felt so stinkin tired and my legs were very sore and hurt-y and I told God that He was gona have to be the one to get me through it...and He totally did. (Duhhh. :) And not to make this into a story with a Bible application that can apply to your life but...It's very cool to think that God already knows what we're going to go through even though we don't and He is totally willing to be there every step of the way. And of course, not just while you happen to be running a half/full marathon, but in all the things that God places on your heart. Even sometimes when you don't know what He wants for your life. (Like say, what your'e going to do this summer...) God already knows the plans He has for you, and they are plans to prosper you, not harm you, and to give you a hope and a future. We will know His will when we seek him with all your heart. (Jer. 29:11, 13) Hello, cool!
Another cool verse that I recently stumbled across is this: "Many, O Lord my God, are the wonders you have dont. The things you have planned for us no one can recount to you...Here I am, I have come. I desire to do your will, O my God. Your law is within my heart." Ps. 40:5a, 7-8. I just think its pretty great how God has the greatest stuff planned for us, but the only way we will know what it is, is to be patient and trust in Him to reveal his will to us in his own time. God is good yo. Don't forget it (:
Peace out for now. Philosophy...here I come.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
One to grow on.
Ahhh, my first official blog. this is gona be good for sure...
Here are my thoughts of the day:
1. Why do rich people buy ugly clothes and bad smelling perfumes? (I was just looking through Lucky...it's quite boring but I do it all the time. Jenna makes fun of me :)
2. I'm pretty glad we didn't talk about indians in Sunday School today...
3. I should be studying for something. anything. but noooo. that would be silly. they dont call me Julie Procrastinata Hagerup for nothing.
4. I should also call my brother because he called me on Friday but i was almost to work and my phone was dead all of saturday. I don't really love talking on the phone unless it is to someone that I never get to see. And i feel like it's kinda weird that I don't love talking on the phone because I am a girl. And I feel like if you're a girl that it's kind of a pre-requisit or something...
5. When I was running 12.something miles on Friday I ran past these apartments that totally reminded me of Brandon Oaks and it made me so happy! But it also made me miss everyone that I know there. Michelle and Haidi and Hector the most.
6. I love Everyday Sunday. ...Could you imagine if everyday was Sunday? that would be amazing!!
7. Why does God put certain people in your life for only a summer? Summer was great, but summer is gone, and next summer doesnt count because it's a different summer. I know God gave me these friends for a purpose, for me to grow, but I just want them in my life all the time. I guess what I'm trying to say is, can everyone that I love please move somewhere are san marcos/austin area? k thanks! (:
8. There's this guy in my Sunday School class from North Carolina, and he says water like Brennan! It makes me very happy.
9. I'm still so excited that Danny De la garza let me have two slices of his pizza last night...right there at the cash register...for free!
10. I was jammin on Weston earlier. It was a total blast. I'm still not that great, but I love it, so that's good enough for me. And for my awesome great roommates anytime I'm in Arlington (:
11. When I was a young small child, my mom would always pack some fruit in my lunch (and when i was not so young...) and when we would have grapes she would give me the same number of grapes as my age...plus one to grow on. I think it worked, because I'm pretty tall!
Ok. It's superbowl party time. And guess what? I know how the super bowl got it's name. Because I am a cool kid. Duh (:
Here are my thoughts of the day:
1. Why do rich people buy ugly clothes and bad smelling perfumes? (I was just looking through Lucky...it's quite boring but I do it all the time. Jenna makes fun of me :)
2. I'm pretty glad we didn't talk about indians in Sunday School today...
3. I should be studying for something. anything. but noooo. that would be silly. they dont call me Julie Procrastinata Hagerup for nothing.
4. I should also call my brother because he called me on Friday but i was almost to work and my phone was dead all of saturday. I don't really love talking on the phone unless it is to someone that I never get to see. And i feel like it's kinda weird that I don't love talking on the phone because I am a girl. And I feel like if you're a girl that it's kind of a pre-requisit or something...
5. When I was running 12.something miles on Friday I ran past these apartments that totally reminded me of Brandon Oaks and it made me so happy! But it also made me miss everyone that I know there. Michelle and Haidi and Hector the most.
6. I love Everyday Sunday. ...Could you imagine if everyday was Sunday? that would be amazing!!
7. Why does God put certain people in your life for only a summer? Summer was great, but summer is gone, and next summer doesnt count because it's a different summer. I know God gave me these friends for a purpose, for me to grow, but I just want them in my life all the time. I guess what I'm trying to say is, can everyone that I love please move somewhere are san marcos/austin area? k thanks! (:
8. There's this guy in my Sunday School class from North Carolina, and he says water like Brennan! It makes me very happy.
9. I'm still so excited that Danny De la garza let me have two slices of his pizza last night...right there at the cash register...for free!
10. I was jammin on Weston earlier. It was a total blast. I'm still not that great, but I love it, so that's good enough for me. And for my awesome great roommates anytime I'm in Arlington (:
11. When I was a young small child, my mom would always pack some fruit in my lunch (and when i was not so young...) and when we would have grapes she would give me the same number of grapes as my age...plus one to grow on. I think it worked, because I'm pretty tall!
Ok. It's superbowl party time. And guess what? I know how the super bowl got it's name. Because I am a cool kid. Duh (:
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