sometimes

freakin heck.

Pumped up...

Biz, this is for you.



The lead singer and I basically have the same dance moves...just sayin.

Freedom.

Just so you know.

The roach is dead. Kati and I had a group effort killing spree last night. It took about 30 minutes. And there's probably a ton of roach guts in our napkin basket. But alas, he's gone. Thank you Lord, that thing was disgusting!

really cool things creepin in your kitchen...

Likeeeeee big, huge, giant roaches!! Yeahhhh, we have them. And I'm not excited. Let me tell you the story...

Katy and I are studying in the living room and she gets up to make some Ramen. Then she screams. Then I JUMP up off the floor, where I am diligently studying for exercise physiology, and run to the kitchen.

She says, "sorry. There's a roach in here!"

I say, "It's ok. Gross..." But then I smile and tell her, "You should kill it."

So she goes to get get a tennis shoe and I let her know that it's best to just put both of them on your feet and stomp on the shady fellow scurryin around and if you miss, it's ok because then you can jump on him with your other foot (Good advice for any girl trying to kill a roach if you ask me).

She only had the one shoe but she did put it on. Then we stood there. And then she said "I can't do it!"

So i went and put on my tennis shoes and came back to the kitchen because I was gona git that sucka. Because he's gross. Unfortunately, right as I was working up enough courage to stomp his guts out, he crawled underneath the oven and has not come out since.

I banged on the oven, I turned on the oven, and I waited and waited. He did not come. But then we both had to leave, so he may actually be creepin around our apt, just waiting to attack us in the night! So yeah, I'm alittle worried.

What the heck roaches? Your kind is not welcome here. Please leave at our nearest convenience, which is right now.
Thanks,
Kati, Julie, and Katy.

freakin heck!

I made a 75 on my exercise physiology test! My first test of the semester, and I did not fail or make a D... This is an exciting thing. And I just wanted everyone to know. (:

God, I trust You?

I feel like this is a sentence people throw around alot. Well, ok, I wrote a question, but you know what I mean. A good response to anyone going through a "tough time", if you're a believer, is to say "Just put your trust in the Lord..." As if to say that's going to solve all your problems...

Truth:It's not.

But before you start freaking out on me, hear me out. We are called to "trust in the Lord with all [our] hearts and lean not on [our] own understanding" but sometimes I just have to wonder: what does that even mean? I've been saying that I do that since I was like 5 or 7 or something crazy young like that. But I said it because that's what everyone says. Even now, I don't feel like I have a great grasp on what it looks like to just completely "let go and let God!" (yeah, sorry. I'm done with the cheesy cliches now.)

But let's be real. I would really really really like to say "alright God. I don't know what the heck you're doing, but shoot louise, I'm just gona trust you" and actually do it.

The truth is that I want to, I do...but I also have this little small issue with being in control. Of something. Of anything. So naturally, I try to play God and fool myself and others into thinking that I have everything under control, when indeed I do not. But it feels good to be in control. Because I can see myself. I already know MY plans. It's safer. It's comfortable. And that's how I like it...

And I mean, yeah, it's easier to not trust people because then you're less likely to get hurt. And everything is easy-schmeasy...til it's not anymore.

Truth: God is the only person worth trusting. His word never fails, and neither does His love. And whatever we go through, the things that He already has planned, are to bring us closer to Him and become more like His son Jesus. Granted, sometimes this process may hurt, or be uncomfortable, but I think in the end we'll see that it's worth it.

So, I don't know what's coming. And I don't know if I'll necessarily like it. But I do know that I'd rather put my trust in Someone who actually knows what He's doing, than in someone who fails everytime (me). So God, here ya go. I wana walk with you closely, and learn what it means to for real put my trust in You.

Wedding Dress.

truth.

aslkkfjdkasdffsdlf.
Ya ever get that?

Sometimes I don't like hearing truth...Sometimes I really do. And sometimes I love it and I hate it. It makes me think. For a really long time. [Like even when I'm trying to go to sleep...] It's challenging.

No wonder I don't like it. Hi, my name is Julie and I really love being comfortable.

Unfortunately for me, God does not call me, who He has chosen, to just be comfortable and do easy things. God calls me to be obedient to Him and to freakin not greive the Holy Spirit. [Ephesians 4:30] Awesome.

And sidenote, it's not actually unfortunate. The Lord disciplines those He loves [Hebrews 12:6] He's working on me because He loves me. He wants the best for me. And woodangyeah, because of Jesus, when the Father looks at me, He doesn't even see my gross sin, He sees Jesus covering it up. Holla for some propitiation...

Truth: I'm not called to be comfortable or do things halfway. I am called to share the gospel, serve the Lord, and bring glory to God in all the things I do.

happy, hungry, and really sore

I had a really great day at work today...and this makes me super happy because I was getting all freaked out about work and feeling like all the managers were about to fire me every second! (ok, yeah, that's slight exaggeration) But today, everyone was very nice and helpful even when I messed up. I'm telling you, if you just tell me in a calm voice what not to do and what to do better, I'll take it much better...like, as in, I won't cry. (Yep, I'm a 3 year old...) And I was even friends with the only guy that works with me, so that's exciting too. Ooh, also, I closed tonight and I got to count up all the money from each register after one of my 18 managers counted it first. Then I had to initial about 74 things but still, super fun, and I felt very official. Woop woop!

Next we have hungry. And I am hungry. I had some grapes and a chicken salad sandwich at the Polcyns, but that was at 1230ish, and now it's 1130ish...so that's kinda crazy. So you can see why I am indeed hungry.

And then the sore. Welp, being on your feet from 4 til 1045, is alittle tiring it turns out! Even when I do wear the red boat shoes which are pretty much the most comfy ones I am allowed to wear to that place. Also, let it be known that I ran monday, biked tuesday, ran (and walked alot) wednesday, and beasted in a 100 and a 40 yard race, and today I played some tennis. And after all that I'm basically feeling like an old lady...nbd though. That's how I roll. Old lady style...umm, well, maybe not exactly. I don't know. Anyway, I'm super sore but very excited because being sore means you are legit.

Surprisingly enough, after all these things, I'm not very tired right now. Hopefully I will be soon. Peace out suckas.

rainy days and boys who write love songs

Two of the greatest things in America, I would say. Because they're pretty rare, at least in my experience, but maybe that's what makes them so great.

I mean, the boy writing a love song thing just happened in my favorite tv show, but the rain...that's actually happening in real life!! And I'm so excited. I heard the thunder and then I looked out the window. Then I opened the door and started walking down the street because hellooo, i haven't seen rain like this in way too long! I saw some people going inside and people in their cars (and some ambulances, which is sad :/ ...) but I was just thinking "what? are these people crazy? GO PLAY IN THE RAIN! But hey, even if they didn't, I did. So ha.

But alas, I'm back inside now, listening to Tightrope (which is really by Paul Freeman but in Make it or break it Damon wrote it for Emily...yesss please.) and it may quite possibly be on repeat. Don't judge me.

So yeah, that's it. But if you just wanted a little lesson out of this because there usually is, I have one. God is good. And even if my favorite things are unusual and crazy to wish for, God hears me. I got my rain, and listening to it was super cool because it was from a guy (or a God) who loves me ALOT. Yayayay (:

Wait, you can put pictures on your blog?!

So, as it turns out, it's pretty great to put some pictures on your blog! I know everyone does the "Photo Friday" thing, but since it's Monday, and I just wana put some pictures on here (and I won't remember or be consistent enough to keep up with the Friday thing) so here they are now!

This is my best friend in america, Bizantium Joel Polcyn! She's the greatest and best and I love her alot. We're super different, but quite the same in alot of ways, including some very important and/or challenging aspects in our lives. So it makes me really happy that we can know exactly how the other one feels and experience the same thing at the same time, even if she does live alllll the way in Ohio... I'm so stinkin glad you came home to see me! (or your family...whatever ;)


And this is my mom and dad. They both love Jesus a whole lot and they're both wonderful. Last night my dad and I had a great little chat on the couch in the living room and I really loved it. He told me alot of things that I didn't even know before. And I just really love listening to his stories and life experiences. He's a stinkin GENIUS too! So that's always fun. And my mom and I get to hang out all week at VBS, which is a super blast. My mom's great because she actually reads my blogs haha. And because we also have lovely chats and go for walks and have more lovely chats. (Yep, I really love talking...)

[Side note. I also love my siblings really really alot and I could write about them all day long. But I don't have a picture of us all together on my computer so I will write about them a different time.]


And this is my buddy Nycole! She gets a shout out because she's great! And she's coming to see me in like 2 ish weeks and I'm supa stoked! We've also had some great talks (go figure) and I just really love this kid's heart and what God's doing in it. Yayaya for Nycole! Can't wait to see ya bud. Thanks for reading (:

And for anyone else out there who reads (this)...thanks. And stay tuned. My next blogs gona be about puppies!

Nothing Better.

I'm alittle scared to write another blog. Surprisingly, not because I think you will judge me or think I'm an idiot or a hypocrit, but because I might feel that way about myself.

Looking back at some of the things I've written, it blows my mind how awesome some of that stuff is. Ok, yeah, not like I'm an amazing, profound writer, but just because what it says is true stuff...real stuff. But at the same time, when I wrote it, I didn't even know how real it was. I didn't realize that I often times don't trust God but fool myself into thinking that I'm somehow letting Him have control of my life. I didn't realize that most of the time what I say, write, and justify in my head does not come from what I know is right, from past experiences or other gained knowledge, but instead only from what I've heard is right from "them". I didn't realize that I don't even know who "them/they" are...

Here's what I figure though. God uses things in my life that seem to be of no significance for a huge significance. Or even just things that i think I can grasp the depths and profound greatness of to slap me in the face months, or maybe even years later, and cause me to know truth. I also figure that God can use lessons and stuff like I'm talking about to teach me over and over again, and I guess I'm pretty thankful for that.

Tonight, as I went for a run at 12:17 a.m., God did just that. I think alot of it has to do with having a willing heart. And as hard as that is to come by sometimes, God's the one who will equip me with that, and He always knows what He's doing. Yep...ALWAYS. (and yep, this is one of those things I will look back on and think "gosh, if i only knew that then..." because I probly won't remember that on this night, my Father really did give me the wisdom and the ability to trust Him and know that I don't have to depend on myself because He's totally got my back. It's cool though. That's the fun of writing things down and getting to look back on those words and see how the King has worked in my life. And there's nothing better than that. :)