So I've decided that one night, I'm gona go ask the skateboard boys to teach me how to do it. Maybe when I am bored, or maybe just when I need a study break (it's that time of year ya know...), or just whenever. I don't know when, but I'm gona do it.
I'm just gona walk outside of my lovely house at 1245 at night and go right over to those boys and say "umm, hi. Can you teach me how to skateboard and be cool like you guys?" And then of course, they will look at me like i'm a total crazy and be like "well you probly can't do it because you're a girl..." To which I will say, "pshhhhh. Yeah, and I'm shy. pahaha. Let's do it."
Actually I'm just kidding...but just about the conversation part. I'm really gona go outside and talk to them one night and become friends so that they will want to teach me how to skateboard. I think this could be a really valuable skill to have, ya know? I mean, what if my car breaks down? What if I get bored? What if I want to join the party of skateboarding down the street in the absolute middle of the night keeping the neighbors awake? (Obviously, this is a secret-not-so-secret-anymore desire of mine. No shame.) What if I just want to live alittle?
So yeah, I'm pretty excited. I'm alittle nervous, but mostly just excited! Brian told me to watch out which ones I hang with because he and jordan saw some 30 year olds who don't have jobs or lives or wives out there today. I told him "hello, candidate for a wife RIGHT HERE!" haha. jk. I told him those were not the guys I was gona talk to anyway. But look at him, lookin out for me (:
Jordan also looks out for me. His words of advice were "yeah, if you can't beat them, join them." So that's what I'm going to do!
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
6 months later, here ya go...
This summer my wonderful roommate/partner showed me this song. I pretended to like it, and then i went to take a shower and cried the whole time. Yeah, that's alittle depressing, I realize this. A few months after, a friend of mine told me I should listen to this song. I didn't remember what the name of the one was that had made me cry, so I figured ok, why not? So I looked it up and listened to it and I texted my friend back and told him that it was so sad. (He didn't seem to think so, but whatever haha.)
But anyway, as I listened to it for the 3rd time, I kinda fell in love with it... It still makes me sad because I know there's people who feel like this and sometimes even I feel like this. I know, I know, enough with the depressing stuff. But lucky for me/us, God does love us for us so that's really refreshing. Sometimes I work really hard to be this awesome great person, and it's pretty much all in vain, because when I do that, I'm trying to make myself look good, not God. Of course, this never works because I can't look good without God. I forget this. Quite often. I also seem to forget that God is the one who made me, and I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I am made in His image even. So that's pretty flipin sweet.
I pray that I can remember that whenever I am the third wheel, the lame one, the loner, the one with bad grades, the shy/not-so-shy one, the plain-jane, the boring one, the unloved one, He still loves me for me. And that after the tears, the frustration, the unbelief, the doubting, and the fears, I have a smile on my face, because my Savior has redeemed me. And when God looks at me, He doesn't see all my yucky crap, He just sees His awesome Son, making me lovely.
So, yay God! (:
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
the pros and cons of summer.
we're just gona go every other so you don't get too depressed or extremely happy over one or the other.
Pro: there's absolutely nothing to do.
Con: there's absolutely nothing to do.
Pro: i can sleep as late as i want!
Con: i can sleep as late as i want :/
[the reason that this is a con is because monday night i went to bed at 12 and got up at 1130. then i was tired allllll day. except then at night i still didn't want to go to sleep...
Pro: there is NO SCHOOL and i get to hang out with the baby alot. and hold her (:
[she's cute!]
Con: being that there is no school, that means there are no friends from school and no going to the bsm when you're bored.
Pro: I officially don't work at Ranchito anymore!!!
Con: I officially don't make money anymore, except for when i babysit.
Pro: South Carolina in less than a week!! (:
Con: No Ohio...? :/
Pro: when I get back from Arlington, Ashlyn will be so big!
Con: but I won't get to see her for a good while.
Pro: I don't have to wake up early to run
Con: who am I kidding, I'm not gona run in the hot. and by the time night comes around I'm not feelin it at all.
Pro: i have plenty of time to call my friends who i never see.
Con: i still won't do it. lol
Ok well. i guess that is all i can think of for now. I have a very busy day ahead of me, booked full of nothing, but i just thought i would treat you with a blog first...since it's been like over a month! (:
peace.
Pro: there's absolutely nothing to do.
Con: there's absolutely nothing to do.
Pro: i can sleep as late as i want!
Con: i can sleep as late as i want :/
[the reason that this is a con is because monday night i went to bed at 12 and got up at 1130. then i was tired allllll day. except then at night i still didn't want to go to sleep...
Pro: there is NO SCHOOL and i get to hang out with the baby alot. and hold her (:
[she's cute!]
Con: being that there is no school, that means there are no friends from school and no going to the bsm when you're bored.
Pro: I officially don't work at Ranchito anymore!!!
Con: I officially don't make money anymore, except for when i babysit.
Pro: South Carolina in less than a week!! (:
Con: No Ohio...? :/
Pro: when I get back from Arlington, Ashlyn will be so big!
Con: but I won't get to see her for a good while.
Pro: I don't have to wake up early to run
Con: who am I kidding, I'm not gona run in the hot. and by the time night comes around I'm not feelin it at all.
Pro: i have plenty of time to call my friends who i never see.
Con: i still won't do it. lol
Ok well. i guess that is all i can think of for now. I have a very busy day ahead of me, booked full of nothing, but i just thought i would treat you with a blog first...since it's been like over a month! (:
peace.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Behold you have come
over the hills
upon the mountain.
To me, you will run.
My beloved, you've captured my heart.
Won't you dance with me, Oh Lover of my soul, to the song of all songs?
With you, I will go.
You are my love,
you are my fair one.
The winter has passed
and the springtime has come.
Won't you dance with me, Oh Lover of my soul, to the song of all songs?
Romance me, oh Lover of my soul, to song the song of all songs.
Please God, dance with me til the last song, even if i suck at it.
And romance me because right now, you are the only guy that i need.
over the hills
upon the mountain.
To me, you will run.
My beloved, you've captured my heart.
Won't you dance with me, Oh Lover of my soul, to the song of all songs?
With you, I will go.
You are my love,
you are my fair one.
The winter has passed
and the springtime has come.
Won't you dance with me, Oh Lover of my soul, to the song of all songs?
Romance me, oh Lover of my soul, to song the song of all songs.
Please God, dance with me til the last song, even if i suck at it.
And romance me because right now, you are the only guy that i need.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
since i seem to be making a habit out of staying up late...
so, just a quick note, because alot of things happened in my life today that are worth taking note of ...at least for me.
1. I almost signed a lease to live with Jilly beans, Gabi, and Katy today, but then the Heights said they already filled up all the extra spaces... Mehh, i shoulda known because that's what happened at the Edge, and the good places go fast i guess...
1.5 But...i feel alittle relieved because i've never had to pay for anything that expensive every month and i was really scared. I know it has to happen sooner or later, but for now, later is sounding very fine with me!
1.8 I'm still sad though, because it woulda been superrrr legit to live with them! But at least we determined that we can still borrow each others clothes, thank goodness... (:
2. I love that I have like 37 pictures of Clayton on my phone, all of them in which she is looking a-fool and just being very clayton-esque. I love that kid!
3. I started looking at what classes I need for next semester and started getting alittle freaked out. It's always a stressful time trying to pick my schedule...I want it to be perfect, but how am i supposed to know which times are going to be perfect so far in advance??
4. I went to sonic today...enough said! (:
5. 24 hours of prayer is going on RIGHT NOW as we SPEAK! (yes, i know we're not speaking...) I went from 10-11, and sat in the really hot prayer room with Aubrey. It was really cool. And surprisingly alot easier than I thought it would be to pray for a whole hour. I've been practicing though, so that might help. (not practicing praying for an hour, just i've been trying to talk to God alot more through out my day...)
6. I saw Case today for the first time in like 2 weeks or something! And I just want to confirm that he's still like really nice to me. We talked about babies and how they "are too small!" and some other weird stuff...haha. it was fun.
7. Everybody thinks its soo ridiculous that I want to get married by the time I'm 23...well, it's not! Especially when all my friends are like 19-20 and are definitely getting married all the time. No exceptions...except for a few. (:
7.5 Anyway, just call me...the girl from 27 dresses, because I'm well on my way! Which is totally cool. the only downside is that the dresses tend to cost money...
8. if i stay up much later than this, there is no way I will be bright eyed and bushy tailed when it's time to get up in the morning and run...
8.2 But alas, I don't actually have a tail, so this might be a good thing.
9. I WANT A STACY VOICEMAIL!!!!!! and a phone convo even. I miss that kid mucho!
10. Speaking of Stacy, hello every summer missionary that I pretty much ever talked to. I miss you for sure. Call me. ( Because I think we all know, i won't call you. Not because i hate you, just because i suck at phones)
11. This is just getting ridiculous. Now i'm just coming up with random stupid stuff so that I don't have to go to bed...I mean shoot, if i keep this up, we're gona be all the way to number 584...and who wants to read all that anyway?!
So then 12. Good NIGHTTTTTT. (:
1. I almost signed a lease to live with Jilly beans, Gabi, and Katy today, but then the Heights said they already filled up all the extra spaces... Mehh, i shoulda known because that's what happened at the Edge, and the good places go fast i guess...
1.5 But...i feel alittle relieved because i've never had to pay for anything that expensive every month and i was really scared. I know it has to happen sooner or later, but for now, later is sounding very fine with me!
1.8 I'm still sad though, because it woulda been superrrr legit to live with them! But at least we determined that we can still borrow each others clothes, thank goodness... (:
2. I love that I have like 37 pictures of Clayton on my phone, all of them in which she is looking a-fool and just being very clayton-esque. I love that kid!
3. I started looking at what classes I need for next semester and started getting alittle freaked out. It's always a stressful time trying to pick my schedule...I want it to be perfect, but how am i supposed to know which times are going to be perfect so far in advance??
4. I went to sonic today...enough said! (:
5. 24 hours of prayer is going on RIGHT NOW as we SPEAK! (yes, i know we're not speaking...) I went from 10-11, and sat in the really hot prayer room with Aubrey. It was really cool. And surprisingly alot easier than I thought it would be to pray for a whole hour. I've been practicing though, so that might help. (not practicing praying for an hour, just i've been trying to talk to God alot more through out my day...)
6. I saw Case today for the first time in like 2 weeks or something! And I just want to confirm that he's still like really nice to me. We talked about babies and how they "are too small!" and some other weird stuff...haha. it was fun.
7. Everybody thinks its soo ridiculous that I want to get married by the time I'm 23...well, it's not! Especially when all my friends are like 19-20 and are definitely getting married all the time. No exceptions...except for a few. (:
7.5 Anyway, just call me...the girl from 27 dresses, because I'm well on my way! Which is totally cool. the only downside is that the dresses tend to cost money...
8. if i stay up much later than this, there is no way I will be bright eyed and bushy tailed when it's time to get up in the morning and run...
8.2 But alas, I don't actually have a tail, so this might be a good thing.
9. I WANT A STACY VOICEMAIL!!!!!! and a phone convo even. I miss that kid mucho!
10. Speaking of Stacy, hello every summer missionary that I pretty much ever talked to. I miss you for sure. Call me. ( Because I think we all know, i won't call you. Not because i hate you, just because i suck at phones)
11. This is just getting ridiculous. Now i'm just coming up with random stupid stuff so that I don't have to go to bed...I mean shoot, if i keep this up, we're gona be all the way to number 584...and who wants to read all that anyway?!
So then 12. Good NIGHTTTTTT. (:
Monday, April 5, 2010
Sometimes I stay up late because my brain won't turn off.
Hello all 9 of you who may or may not actually read my blog... (:
Yeah, just like the rest of you, i haven't written in awhile because school was like "oh hello, i'm gona RUIN your life!! have fun."
Anyway, last night I was thinking about random stuff...I guess because it was Easter I was thinking about how I take Jesus for granted a LOT, and I don't thank God enough for sending His son to die for my sins, and rise again (because he's legit...). And then I was thinking why did God even do it all. Like not in a bad way or like I'm not glad He did. But all the sudden I was just like "why in america did God make Jesus die on a cross because we all suck at life?"
And why did he make us in the first place? If you think about it, God doesn't need us. Fact.
Like, God's already perfect, but he decided to bring us into the world...to mess everything up. And the funny thing is, He knew we would...Yet here we all are anyway. Because for whatever reason, he loves us. This is definitely crazy to me. How could he love every one of us before he even made us? And how in the world could he love us even though he straight up KNEW we would break his heart again and again? I mean, why put yourself through that?
I guess (to answer my own question), it's kinda like that stupid philosophy question: Would it be better to bring someone into the world if it was for a greater purpose, even if it means alot of yucky suffering and heart ache and questioning and hurting? Or would it be better to just live in a lame, safe, really boring bubble where nothing could ever hurt you or make you think and question stuff? The answer seems obvious in this case.
...And I guess if I ponder it long and hard enough, I realize that the answer is the same for my God question.
It is better to go through some really hard, crazy, sometimes disheartening times for a greater purpose. I think God knew that, and of course, that's why He chose to do it. And I think he's put that knowledge in the people's hearts who have the holy spirit. I think God's greater purpose in creating us was so that glory would ultimately be brought to his name. And that's our greater purpose also; to fulfill God's plan of making HIS name famous.
I guess he knew we would screw up 80 times a day along the way, but he also knew that if we are willing to trust in Him to guide us through this mess of life it's gona be so worth it.
So I just wana say thanks to "the big guy upstairs", as jenny beans calls God, for choosing to create us. Me. the mess that I am. So that I can live my life giving You the glory in everything I do...or at least attemting to. Thanks for never giving up on me and for loving me like a freakin hurricane! You are the best (:
Also, on a slightly less profound note, I played Weston tonight!! Man, it's been a good while! [stupid school!] But I took him outside on the back "porch", tuned him up, put on the capo and played How He Loves (and some other stuff). ...Just me and Weston and God...and it was great. (:
The end. Love Julie, who will very soon be 19!
Yeah, just like the rest of you, i haven't written in awhile because school was like "oh hello, i'm gona RUIN your life!! have fun."
Anyway, last night I was thinking about random stuff...I guess because it was Easter I was thinking about how I take Jesus for granted a LOT, and I don't thank God enough for sending His son to die for my sins, and rise again (because he's legit...). And then I was thinking why did God even do it all. Like not in a bad way or like I'm not glad He did. But all the sudden I was just like "why in america did God make Jesus die on a cross because we all suck at life?"
And why did he make us in the first place? If you think about it, God doesn't need us. Fact.
Like, God's already perfect, but he decided to bring us into the world...to mess everything up. And the funny thing is, He knew we would...Yet here we all are anyway. Because for whatever reason, he loves us. This is definitely crazy to me. How could he love every one of us before he even made us? And how in the world could he love us even though he straight up KNEW we would break his heart again and again? I mean, why put yourself through that?
I guess (to answer my own question), it's kinda like that stupid philosophy question: Would it be better to bring someone into the world if it was for a greater purpose, even if it means alot of yucky suffering and heart ache and questioning and hurting? Or would it be better to just live in a lame, safe, really boring bubble where nothing could ever hurt you or make you think and question stuff? The answer seems obvious in this case.
...And I guess if I ponder it long and hard enough, I realize that the answer is the same for my God question.
It is better to go through some really hard, crazy, sometimes disheartening times for a greater purpose. I think God knew that, and of course, that's why He chose to do it. And I think he's put that knowledge in the people's hearts who have the holy spirit. I think God's greater purpose in creating us was so that glory would ultimately be brought to his name. And that's our greater purpose also; to fulfill God's plan of making HIS name famous.
I guess he knew we would screw up 80 times a day along the way, but he also knew that if we are willing to trust in Him to guide us through this mess of life it's gona be so worth it.
So I just wana say thanks to "the big guy upstairs", as jenny beans calls God, for choosing to create us. Me. the mess that I am. So that I can live my life giving You the glory in everything I do...or at least attemting to. Thanks for never giving up on me and for loving me like a freakin hurricane! You are the best (:
Also, on a slightly less profound note, I played Weston tonight!! Man, it's been a good while! [stupid school!] But I took him outside on the back "porch", tuned him up, put on the capo and played How He Loves (and some other stuff). ...Just me and Weston and God...and it was great. (:
The end. Love Julie, who will very soon be 19!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
We don't drink coffee...
asdlkfjas;ldkfj.
So I just spent the last 3 hours kind of studying and writing a dumb paper for my Health Ed. class. I also took a bio quiz, but that didn't go so well...hehe. its cool though, i have 3 chances. Then I looked up what I was supposed to study for my phil test on thursday and I decided it was time for a break! haha. But I still feel somewhat productive.
On a funny-ish note, there's definitely a middle aged man chillin in here playing world of warcraft. (is that one word? war craft? warcraft? i dont know. ps. i dont care) I know I do ALOTTTT of stuff that makes no sense and is for sure a waste of my time, but it's just so amusing to me when people devote 789 hours to playing that...and it reminds me of my algebra 2 teacher...and he was a weirdy! (But i'm not judging)
Anyway. I decided I pretty much love this place. Mochas. It's way easier to do my homework here. at least today. And it's also warmer here (: Sometimes there's even cute boys, which is always a plus.
I remember coming here when I was real young...ok, when I was like 15. One time I came here the night I got back from Super Summer and I really loved it because I think I was with most, if not all, of my siblings. Also it was just novel to me that I was old enough to go out late at night and get coffee. :D
My dad and I used to come here sometimes too. I guess that was before the days of Chiro...but considering how slow and struggling chiro is right now, we might see those days again...(super sad!) Anyway. It's always fun to get coffee with dad. I will always get a mocha frappacino and he will always get a vanilla bean one...so what if we are predictable? (:
Oooh weird. One time I even came here with little John and Herman...(what?) And I got my mocha frappe, of course, but then we just took it to go, and on the way home in Little John's truck, his throat was getting all closey and he almost died cuz he could smell the chocolate or something! I felt bad, but not that bad because it was good. And he maybe was faking it alittle...just sayin.
(uhh, PS. Little John used to be super alergic to chocolate)
My favorite time though, was when Jason, Jenna, Erica, and I were all here and we were taking pictures (I wana say on Jasons laptop, but I could just be making that up...) Anyway, it was a freakin blast. There's this one picture of Jenna, Jason, and me all on the couch, and we're all wearing blue shirts. And we are really cute. It's probly my favorite picture. ever!
Good times, good times. What is it about coffee shops that is so great? I don't even like coffee!! (:
So I just spent the last 3 hours kind of studying and writing a dumb paper for my Health Ed. class. I also took a bio quiz, but that didn't go so well...hehe. its cool though, i have 3 chances. Then I looked up what I was supposed to study for my phil test on thursday and I decided it was time for a break! haha. But I still feel somewhat productive.
On a funny-ish note, there's definitely a middle aged man chillin in here playing world of warcraft. (is that one word? war craft? warcraft? i dont know. ps. i dont care) I know I do ALOTTTT of stuff that makes no sense and is for sure a waste of my time, but it's just so amusing to me when people devote 789 hours to playing that...and it reminds me of my algebra 2 teacher...and he was a weirdy! (But i'm not judging)
Anyway. I decided I pretty much love this place. Mochas. It's way easier to do my homework here. at least today. And it's also warmer here (: Sometimes there's even cute boys, which is always a plus.
I remember coming here when I was real young...ok, when I was like 15. One time I came here the night I got back from Super Summer and I really loved it because I think I was with most, if not all, of my siblings. Also it was just novel to me that I was old enough to go out late at night and get coffee. :D
My dad and I used to come here sometimes too. I guess that was before the days of Chiro...but considering how slow and struggling chiro is right now, we might see those days again...(super sad!) Anyway. It's always fun to get coffee with dad. I will always get a mocha frappacino and he will always get a vanilla bean one...so what if we are predictable? (:
Oooh weird. One time I even came here with little John and Herman...(what?) And I got my mocha frappe, of course, but then we just took it to go, and on the way home in Little John's truck, his throat was getting all closey and he almost died cuz he could smell the chocolate or something! I felt bad, but not that bad because it was good. And he maybe was faking it alittle...just sayin.
(uhh, PS. Little John used to be super alergic to chocolate)
My favorite time though, was when Jason, Jenna, Erica, and I were all here and we were taking pictures (I wana say on Jasons laptop, but I could just be making that up...) Anyway, it was a freakin blast. There's this one picture of Jenna, Jason, and me all on the couch, and we're all wearing blue shirts. And we are really cute. It's probly my favorite picture. ever!
Good times, good times. What is it about coffee shops that is so great? I don't even like coffee!! (:
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