I had a really great day at work today...and this makes me super happy because I was getting all freaked out about work and feeling like all the managers were about to fire me every second! (ok, yeah, that's slight exaggeration) But today, everyone was very nice and helpful even when I messed up. I'm telling you, if you just tell me in a calm voice what not to do and what to do better, I'll take it much better...like, as in, I won't cry. (Yep, I'm a 3 year old...) And I was even friends with the only guy that works with me, so that's exciting too. Ooh, also, I closed tonight and I got to count up all the money from each register after one of my 18 managers counted it first. Then I had to initial about 74 things but still, super fun, and I felt very official. Woop woop!
Next we have hungry. And I am hungry. I had some grapes and a chicken salad sandwich at the Polcyns, but that was at 1230ish, and now it's 1130ish...so that's kinda crazy. So you can see why I am indeed hungry.
And then the sore. Welp, being on your feet from 4 til 1045, is alittle tiring it turns out! Even when I do wear the red boat shoes which are pretty much the most comfy ones I am allowed to wear to that place. Also, let it be known that I ran monday, biked tuesday, ran (and walked alot) wednesday, and beasted in a 100 and a 40 yard race, and today I played some tennis. And after all that I'm basically feeling like an old lady...nbd though. That's how I roll. Old lady style...umm, well, maybe not exactly. I don't know. Anyway, I'm super sore but very excited because being sore means you are legit.
Surprisingly enough, after all these things, I'm not very tired right now. Hopefully I will be soon. Peace out suckas.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
rainy days and boys who write love songs
Two of the greatest things in America, I would say. Because they're pretty rare, at least in my experience, but maybe that's what makes them so great.
I mean, the boy writing a love song thing just happened in my favorite tv show, but the rain...that's actually happening in real life!! And I'm so excited. I heard the thunder and then I looked out the window. Then I opened the door and started walking down the street because hellooo, i haven't seen rain like this in way too long! I saw some people going inside and people in their cars (and some ambulances, which is sad :/ ...) but I was just thinking "what? are these people crazy? GO PLAY IN THE RAIN! But hey, even if they didn't, I did. So ha.
But alas, I'm back inside now, listening to Tightrope (which is really by Paul Freeman but in Make it or break it Damon wrote it for Emily...yesss please.) and it may quite possibly be on repeat. Don't judge me.
So yeah, that's it. But if you just wanted a little lesson out of this because there usually is, I have one. God is good. And even if my favorite things are unusual and crazy to wish for, God hears me. I got my rain, and listening to it was super cool because it was from a guy (or a God) who loves me ALOT. Yayayay (:
I mean, the boy writing a love song thing just happened in my favorite tv show, but the rain...that's actually happening in real life!! And I'm so excited. I heard the thunder and then I looked out the window. Then I opened the door and started walking down the street because hellooo, i haven't seen rain like this in way too long! I saw some people going inside and people in their cars (and some ambulances, which is sad :/ ...) but I was just thinking "what? are these people crazy? GO PLAY IN THE RAIN! But hey, even if they didn't, I did. So ha.
But alas, I'm back inside now, listening to Tightrope (which is really by Paul Freeman but in Make it or break it Damon wrote it for Emily...yesss please.) and it may quite possibly be on repeat. Don't judge me.
So yeah, that's it. But if you just wanted a little lesson out of this because there usually is, I have one. God is good. And even if my favorite things are unusual and crazy to wish for, God hears me. I got my rain, and listening to it was super cool because it was from a guy (or a God) who loves me ALOT. Yayayay (:
Monday, June 20, 2011
Wait, you can put pictures on your blog?!
So, as it turns out, it's pretty great to put some pictures on your blog! I know everyone does the "Photo Friday" thing, but since it's Monday, and I just wana put some pictures on here (and I won't remember or be consistent enough to keep up with the Friday thing) so here they are now!
This is my best friend in america, Bizantium Joel Polcyn! She's the greatest and best and I love her alot. We're super different, but quite the same in alot of ways, including some very important and/or challenging aspects in our lives. So it makes me really happy that we can know exactly how the other one feels and experience the same thing at the same time, even if she does live alllll the way in Ohio... I'm so stinkin glad you came home to see me! (or your family...whatever ;)
And this is my mom and dad. They both love Jesus a whole lot and they're both wonderful. Last night my dad and I had a great little chat on the couch in the living room and I really loved it. He told me alot of things that I didn't even know before. And I just really love listening to his stories and life experiences. He's a stinkin GENIUS too! So that's always fun. And my mom and I get to hang out all week at VBS, which is a super blast. My mom's great because she actually reads my blogs haha. And because we also have lovely chats and go for walks and have more lovely chats. (Yep, I really love talking...)
[Side note. I also love my siblings really really alot and I could write about them all day long. But I don't have a picture of us all together on my computer so I will write about them a different time.]
And this is my buddy Nycole! She gets a shout out because she's great! And she's coming to see me in like 2 ish weeks and I'm supa stoked! We've also had some great talks (go figure) and I just really love this kid's heart and what God's doing in it. Yayaya for Nycole! Can't wait to see ya bud. Thanks for reading (:
And for anyone else out there who reads (this)...thanks. And stay tuned. My next blogs gona be about puppies!
This is my best friend in america, Bizantium Joel Polcyn! She's the greatest and best and I love her alot. We're super different, but quite the same in alot of ways, including some very important and/or challenging aspects in our lives. So it makes me really happy that we can know exactly how the other one feels and experience the same thing at the same time, even if she does live alllll the way in Ohio... I'm so stinkin glad you came home to see me! (or your family...whatever ;)
And this is my mom and dad. They both love Jesus a whole lot and they're both wonderful. Last night my dad and I had a great little chat on the couch in the living room and I really loved it. He told me alot of things that I didn't even know before. And I just really love listening to his stories and life experiences. He's a stinkin GENIUS too! So that's always fun. And my mom and I get to hang out all week at VBS, which is a super blast. My mom's great because she actually reads my blogs haha. And because we also have lovely chats and go for walks and have more lovely chats. (Yep, I really love talking...)
[Side note. I also love my siblings really really alot and I could write about them all day long. But I don't have a picture of us all together on my computer so I will write about them a different time.]
And this is my buddy Nycole! She gets a shout out because she's great! And she's coming to see me in like 2 ish weeks and I'm supa stoked! We've also had some great talks (go figure) and I just really love this kid's heart and what God's doing in it. Yayaya for Nycole! Can't wait to see ya bud. Thanks for reading (:
And for anyone else out there who reads (this)...thanks. And stay tuned. My next blogs gona be about puppies!
Monday, June 6, 2011
Nothing Better.
I'm alittle scared to write another blog. Surprisingly, not because I think you will judge me or think I'm an idiot or a hypocrit, but because I might feel that way about myself.
Looking back at some of the things I've written, it blows my mind how awesome some of that stuff is. Ok, yeah, not like I'm an amazing, profound writer, but just because what it says is true stuff...real stuff. But at the same time, when I wrote it, I didn't even know how real it was. I didn't realize that I often times don't trust God but fool myself into thinking that I'm somehow letting Him have control of my life. I didn't realize that most of the time what I say, write, and justify in my head does not come from what I know is right, from past experiences or other gained knowledge, but instead only from what I've heard is right from "them". I didn't realize that I don't even know who "them/they" are...
Here's what I figure though. God uses things in my life that seem to be of no significance for a huge significance. Or even just things that i think I can grasp the depths and profound greatness of to slap me in the face months, or maybe even years later, and cause me to know truth. I also figure that God can use lessons and stuff like I'm talking about to teach me over and over again, and I guess I'm pretty thankful for that.
Tonight, as I went for a run at 12:17 a.m., God did just that. I think alot of it has to do with having a willing heart. And as hard as that is to come by sometimes, God's the one who will equip me with that, and He always knows what He's doing. Yep...ALWAYS. (and yep, this is one of those things I will look back on and think "gosh, if i only knew that then..." because I probly won't remember that on this night, my Father really did give me the wisdom and the ability to trust Him and know that I don't have to depend on myself because He's totally got my back. It's cool though. That's the fun of writing things down and getting to look back on those words and see how the King has worked in my life. And there's nothing better than that. :)
Looking back at some of the things I've written, it blows my mind how awesome some of that stuff is. Ok, yeah, not like I'm an amazing, profound writer, but just because what it says is true stuff...real stuff. But at the same time, when I wrote it, I didn't even know how real it was. I didn't realize that I often times don't trust God but fool myself into thinking that I'm somehow letting Him have control of my life. I didn't realize that most of the time what I say, write, and justify in my head does not come from what I know is right, from past experiences or other gained knowledge, but instead only from what I've heard is right from "them". I didn't realize that I don't even know who "them/they" are...
Here's what I figure though. God uses things in my life that seem to be of no significance for a huge significance. Or even just things that i think I can grasp the depths and profound greatness of to slap me in the face months, or maybe even years later, and cause me to know truth. I also figure that God can use lessons and stuff like I'm talking about to teach me over and over again, and I guess I'm pretty thankful for that.
Tonight, as I went for a run at 12:17 a.m., God did just that. I think alot of it has to do with having a willing heart. And as hard as that is to come by sometimes, God's the one who will equip me with that, and He always knows what He's doing. Yep...ALWAYS. (and yep, this is one of those things I will look back on and think "gosh, if i only knew that then..." because I probly won't remember that on this night, my Father really did give me the wisdom and the ability to trust Him and know that I don't have to depend on myself because He's totally got my back. It's cool though. That's the fun of writing things down and getting to look back on those words and see how the King has worked in my life. And there's nothing better than that. :)
Monday, December 27, 2010
the driveway.
Welp, it's almost 2011 kids...is that crazy to anyone else? I feel like when I was younger a year was suchhh a long time. When we would finally get to Christmas break again, my heart would be so dang happy. I remember the first day of Christmas break in first grade I think, and I was running around the living room (in circles) in some black courdoroy overalls...they were lovely. And the living room was lovely of course because it was finally Christmas! But anyway, I digress. Now a year seems to fly by, which can be both good and bad.
I just went for a run around downtown seguin and when I got home I opened the door to go inside, but then i closed it. without going in. I decided I needed some driveway time...
My driveway is super great. Well, I don't know if others, especially people outside of my immediate family, have the same appreciation for it, but to me, it is completely wonderful.
It's great in the daytime, but it's perfect at night. It doesn't mind if you're sweaty or crying. You can bring the couches out there and watch movies on the garage with your friends, or have your birthday party or wash your car. There's always basketball, if you're feeling ambitious...and if you bring the ball because we don't have one anymore...You can read boring papers for Mr. Simpsons class out there or play in the back of Drew's really old tiny truck, and even have scooter or bike races (again, if you have the scooter and/or bike)! My personal favorites are to play the guitar out there or just sit on the slanty part, or the bed of Jordans truck if there's too many scary bugs out there, and talk it up and stare at the stars.
I've seriously had some of the best talks in my whole entire life out there on the driveway: in person or on the phone, good or bad, easy or hard, I pretty much want to be on that driveway. My friend panda and I used to drive to sonic and drive around seguin for awhile, til we realized there was nothing to do, so then we would come back to my house and hang out on the driveway. I remember one night in particular, we just sat on the back of her car and talked about stuff going on in our lives. I think that's one of the first nights I realized that there was something beautiful about being totally genuine. Then I remember praying out there for a really long time. But it wasn't a bad long time, it was really good.
I've also talked on the phone to Brennan about coming to the good old 29020, which wasn't really a long one, just an exciting one. One time Little Sarah and Charles and I ate some delicious ice cream and chatted it up. I don't remember why we were outside, but it was pretty much a great idea. Also, one time Little Sarah and I sat in her car in my driveway (ok, maybe it was on the street, but it was close to it) and played a ridiculous theoretical what-if game...haha. And of course, some pretty awesome times with the bros and sis out there too, alot at night (which is the perfect time if you will recall)so that's fun.
Anyway, as I layed on the driveway today after my run, I couldn't help but think how much I loved it right there, exactly where I was. I thought about all the good times, I looked at the sky, and I hung out with God, and it was awesome. When life gets complicated, my driveway is the best. Please feel free to use it anytime...just ask. (:
I just went for a run around downtown seguin and when I got home I opened the door to go inside, but then i closed it. without going in. I decided I needed some driveway time...
My driveway is super great. Well, I don't know if others, especially people outside of my immediate family, have the same appreciation for it, but to me, it is completely wonderful.
It's great in the daytime, but it's perfect at night. It doesn't mind if you're sweaty or crying. You can bring the couches out there and watch movies on the garage with your friends, or have your birthday party or wash your car. There's always basketball, if you're feeling ambitious...and if you bring the ball because we don't have one anymore...You can read boring papers for Mr. Simpsons class out there or play in the back of Drew's really old tiny truck, and even have scooter or bike races (again, if you have the scooter and/or bike)! My personal favorites are to play the guitar out there or just sit on the slanty part, or the bed of Jordans truck if there's too many scary bugs out there, and talk it up and stare at the stars.
I've seriously had some of the best talks in my whole entire life out there on the driveway: in person or on the phone, good or bad, easy or hard, I pretty much want to be on that driveway. My friend panda and I used to drive to sonic and drive around seguin for awhile, til we realized there was nothing to do, so then we would come back to my house and hang out on the driveway. I remember one night in particular, we just sat on the back of her car and talked about stuff going on in our lives. I think that's one of the first nights I realized that there was something beautiful about being totally genuine. Then I remember praying out there for a really long time. But it wasn't a bad long time, it was really good.
I've also talked on the phone to Brennan about coming to the good old 29020, which wasn't really a long one, just an exciting one. One time Little Sarah and Charles and I ate some delicious ice cream and chatted it up. I don't remember why we were outside, but it was pretty much a great idea. Also, one time Little Sarah and I sat in her car in my driveway (ok, maybe it was on the street, but it was close to it) and played a ridiculous theoretical what-if game...haha. And of course, some pretty awesome times with the bros and sis out there too, alot at night (which is the perfect time if you will recall)so that's fun.
Anyway, as I layed on the driveway today after my run, I couldn't help but think how much I loved it right there, exactly where I was. I thought about all the good times, I looked at the sky, and I hung out with God, and it was awesome. When life gets complicated, my driveway is the best. Please feel free to use it anytime...just ask. (:
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Show me the Kingdom.
So I was reading my Bible this morning and I came across something pretty cool that I've probly read millions...ok, maybe not a million, but quite a few times...Matthew 4.
It starts off talking about when Jesus was tempted by the devil while He was fasting in the desert. (first of all, fasting is hard enough, but He did it in the desert...that's pretty intense!)Anyway, Satan finds him and he's like "hey, if you're hungry, why don't you just turn some rocks into bread, huh?" and Jesus is like "Man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord." So boom Satan! (Deut. 8:3) Then Satan tells Him "why don't you fall down off of this really tall temple and get some angels to save you?" Jesus says Yeah right! "Do not test the Lord your God." (Deut. 6:16). So Satan tries again and tells Jesus he'll give him abunch of really awesome kingdoms (which is weird to me because it's not like Satan owned them and had the right to give them away) if Jesus will bow down to him, but Jesus resisted again and told the devil what was up. "Fear the Lord your God, serve Him only..." (Deut. 6:13)
So, that's maybe kind of a long recap, but here's what gets me: I never think about things being hard for Jesus. I always remember the part about how He is 100% God, but I think I forget too often that He was also 100% human...And if he was human, he went through things that we go through, like for example, being tempted. Is that crazy to anyone else, because it is to me. I think every other time I've read that story I've believed that Jesus was tempted but that it was super easy for Him to resist the temptations...Soo, maybe I'm wrong, but I've been thinking about it alot and it doesn't really make sense to me that someone could be tempted but not have some part of them that was like "gahhh, i really want that...so bad. At least for right now..."
Tempt= 1.to entice or allure to do something often regarded as unwise, wrong, or immoral.
2. to attract, appeal strongly to, or invite.
Anyway, yeah, I just think it's kinda great that our King Jesus was tempted in the desert by Satan Mc-Crappypants but Jesus said no way jose! And as followers of Jesus, we can say no way jose too because we have Jesus who is living INSIDE us! It sounds super hard to resist stuff that is bad for us yet sounds so appealing, but the point is that Jesus Christ already died for our sins on the cross and if we just let him have control of all our crap, our lives will go so much better. So yeahhh boyeee, let's do it!
Oh but hey, just as a sidenote: I'm definitely just learning what it means to give my crap to Jesus and let him reign in my life. I'm learning that when I do take the time to dig deep in His word that is is so sweet and satisfying and revealing and just worth it!
"Help me see the light, I'm reaching through the fight Yahweh. Show me the Kingdom. Arms open wide, death swallowed up by life. Yahweh, show me the kingdom." -B.D.
It starts off talking about when Jesus was tempted by the devil while He was fasting in the desert. (first of all, fasting is hard enough, but He did it in the desert...that's pretty intense!)Anyway, Satan finds him and he's like "hey, if you're hungry, why don't you just turn some rocks into bread, huh?" and Jesus is like "Man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord." So boom Satan! (Deut. 8:3) Then Satan tells Him "why don't you fall down off of this really tall temple and get some angels to save you?" Jesus says Yeah right! "Do not test the Lord your God." (Deut. 6:16). So Satan tries again and tells Jesus he'll give him abunch of really awesome kingdoms (which is weird to me because it's not like Satan owned them and had the right to give them away) if Jesus will bow down to him, but Jesus resisted again and told the devil what was up. "Fear the Lord your God, serve Him only..." (Deut. 6:13)
So, that's maybe kind of a long recap, but here's what gets me: I never think about things being hard for Jesus. I always remember the part about how He is 100% God, but I think I forget too often that He was also 100% human...And if he was human, he went through things that we go through, like for example, being tempted. Is that crazy to anyone else, because it is to me. I think every other time I've read that story I've believed that Jesus was tempted but that it was super easy for Him to resist the temptations...Soo, maybe I'm wrong, but I've been thinking about it alot and it doesn't really make sense to me that someone could be tempted but not have some part of them that was like "gahhh, i really want that...so bad. At least for right now..."
Tempt= 1.to entice or allure to do something often regarded as unwise, wrong, or immoral.
2. to attract, appeal strongly to, or invite.
Anyway, yeah, I just think it's kinda great that our King Jesus was tempted in the desert by Satan Mc-Crappypants but Jesus said no way jose! And as followers of Jesus, we can say no way jose too because we have Jesus who is living INSIDE us! It sounds super hard to resist stuff that is bad for us yet sounds so appealing, but the point is that Jesus Christ already died for our sins on the cross and if we just let him have control of all our crap, our lives will go so much better. So yeahhh boyeee, let's do it!
Oh but hey, just as a sidenote: I'm definitely just learning what it means to give my crap to Jesus and let him reign in my life. I'm learning that when I do take the time to dig deep in His word that is is so sweet and satisfying and revealing and just worth it!
"Help me see the light, I'm reaching through the fight Yahweh. Show me the Kingdom. Arms open wide, death swallowed up by life. Yahweh, show me the kingdom." -B.D.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
No More Sleepin Under Stars of Apathy...
It's well past midnight
And I'm awake with questions that won't
Wait for daylight
Separating fact from my imaginary fiction
On this shelf of my conviction
I need to find a place
Where You and I come face to face
Thomas needed
Proof that You had really risen
Undefeated
When he placed his fingers
Where the nails once broke Your skin
Did his faith finally begin?
I've lied if I've denied
The common ground I've shared with him
And I, I really want to know You
I want to make each day
A different way that I can show You how
I really want to love You
Be patient with my doubt
I'm just tryin' to figure out Your will
And I really want to know You still
Nicodemus
Could not understand how You could
Truly free us
He struggled with the image
Of a grown man born again
We might have been good friends
Cuz sometimes I still question, too
How easily we come to You
No more campin' on the porch of indecision
No more sleepin' under stars of apathy
And it might be easier to dream
But dreamin's not for me
And I'm awake with questions that won't
Wait for daylight
Separating fact from my imaginary fiction
On this shelf of my conviction
I need to find a place
Where You and I come face to face
Thomas needed
Proof that You had really risen
Undefeated
When he placed his fingers
Where the nails once broke Your skin
Did his faith finally begin?
I've lied if I've denied
The common ground I've shared with him
And I, I really want to know You
I want to make each day
A different way that I can show You how
I really want to love You
Be patient with my doubt
I'm just tryin' to figure out Your will
And I really want to know You still
Nicodemus
Could not understand how You could
Truly free us
He struggled with the image
Of a grown man born again
We might have been good friends
Cuz sometimes I still question, too
How easily we come to You
No more campin' on the porch of indecision
No more sleepin' under stars of apathy
And it might be easier to dream
But dreamin's not for me
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